My first love cheated but I took him back because he hasn’t confessed to it
Me (19f) and my boyfriend (19m) have been dating for a year now. I met him when I was sixteen but he had a girlfriend at the time, so I fell back. In February of 2025, I messaged him and we’ve been in cahoots since. We broke up that summer because he said he needed to “focus on himself and his goals.” I believed him like an idiot and he started texting me again towards the middle/end of July. We got back together in August and everything was okay from there. At the end of April this year (2026) I got a text from a girl (it was his ex) asking me if I was talking to him and I answered yes. She told me that they’d been messing around since June of 2925 and that he’d disguised me in his phone as a family member. She made me call his phone to which he didn’t answer because she said she was sitting right next to him. My heart broke into a million pieces and I’d blocked him on everything that same night. He reached out to me through a game and was adamant on him being at work that night and everything I was told was a lie. I believed him and he suggested we take a break from our relationship because I didn’t trust him.
The next month (May) was filled with silence from both of us, only texting every few days. More effort from my end of course. I started to notice things on social media like him following her and he’d reposted a post of hers she made in December. We spent Christmas together btw. I called him out on it and he said just because he did that it doesn’t mean he’s messing around with her. I didn’t believe that shit. I’d be stupid as fuck to believe some shit like that, but I let it go because I’m in love with him. That all happened in May of this year (2026).
June (2026) came around and I moved back home (the city we met in). We were long distance btw. I’m closer to where he lived now because I was pursuing a job in the city in which he stayed. I texted him subtly letting him know I was around (like a dumbass) and we caught back up again. We ended up meeting, talked for a bit, got back together, then went our separate ways. The next few days/week we spent together and I was so happy. I found solace in his presence, forgetting everything about the whole ex situation. I fell vulnerable and opened my heart and body up to him once more. But I just found out (August 2026) that he has me blocked on social media (masking it as him deleting his accounts) and he was reposting about wanting to get back with his ex 3 days after we’d spent time in each other’s presence (in June 2026). I feel used and disrespected like he was using me to distract himself of memories of his ex. They weren’t following each other on social anymore now and he pointed out to me that he blocked her. Not ever did I think my first love would go like this. I didn’t give up my virginity for this. I’m feeling an aching pain in my chest once again and I’m realizing now why a lot of people say love isn’t enough.
I have the thought to break up with him and let him go for good since he clearly isn’t healed and wants to be with someone else, but he’s my first everything. I want him to be my forever, so I’ve been trying to make it work. I’m conflicted on what I should do since the reposts are from two months ago and I feel like we’re in a better place right now.