u/RRTeo

People are lost, confused, on a path, growing up, or so deep under they can't even start to comprehend.

It has a huge impact on us when their issues become public. Absolute truth.

But it's "just" lost people. Not monsters.

I think we can all agree on our views without the additional hate. Tbh I think it would help us focus on what matters more. Like sharing resources or fundraising for those actually in need or creating community out of connection, not hate.

I feel like this sub is starting to become more like a one topic venting sub and it's getting a bit depressing

Sorry for this vent, have a great day everyone

(I'm open to discussing obv- just my pov)

TLDR: I don't pass + read warning and last paragraph Editi: people think I'm mtf because they're not familiar with passing stuff. Other trans people would clock me af

WARNING: this is not v*nting, I feel ok dw, I'm just describing the situation. Id like to know if there's anyone like me, or someone who managed to escape this situation, even some visiting transfemmes, everyone is welcome. (Also to add my experience on the list for those exploring?)

I'm afraid I'll never pass, (even after top surgery scheduled this year), and that makes me long to be an "androgynous lesbian".

It's been 3.5 years on T and 5 years since the egg crack, and my environment is very conservative.

I'm happy to be seen as a trans woman since I get to be read as amab and I don't need to stress over passing, but I'm SO isolated (I only have one "acquaintance" irl). And ultimately, that's not really me.

Ironically, I'm enby too so I don't want to necessarily fit the gender rules etc, but having M on my ID, in my work field... At least I should be able to pass as M, to be treated as a person instead of a laughable/disgusting experiment/object.

They told me T was magic, "everyone passes no problem". I was scared, too trusting and on panic mode 24/7 (I didn't have the clarity of mind to assess bone structure etc and make a truly conscious choice), I did my best at understanding and choosing what was right for me. I don't regret it, I feel better with my body, with my self, but now the consequences... If only I had picked a major with a more open minded or LGBT heavy demographic...

Socially and dysphoria... Is bad. But detransitioning, makes no sense, more so since my id says M too.

So I'm basically stuck with a bright "TRANS" marker text of my forehead. Rn I'm kinda embracing the 'transfem story', so that at least I feel like "it's intentional" and not a vulnerability for everyone to disrespect.

PS: Mods if you think this should be in v*nt lmk, I'm really sorry. I posted here because I thought v*nting was for emotional help, but I'm serene, I just really want to hear some experiences and perspectives. Lmk