u/RaRaRaskolnikov

im trying to guage the likelihood of me getting at least a 3 and yk what maybe i do have a chance but my memory is sooo bad 😭 every practice test i do i get around half the questions right. is there anything i can do to somehow be able to memorize more or is it too late to do anything drastic. im choosing to be delusionally hopeful here ✌️ i havent done any practice frqs yet so maybe thats a problem too

HOLY SHIT i just finished my ap lang exam. im so fucking mad im actually so pissed right now. english has always been my best subject. knowt constantly gave me a 5 whenever i practiced mcqs and frqs there. i never got anything below an A- in ap lang timed frq practices. i was regularly getting almost perfect scores on collegeboard mcqs. i thought i fucking had it. i thought i was going to do well on this test.

until i got paired up to sit next to this girl. i didnt think much of it at first since the mcqs went by pretty smoothly. and then came the frqs 😂😂😂😂😂😂😭

OH MY FUCKINGGGGGGG HGOD. imagine sitting next to a plane propeller. imagine a machine gun constantly firing right next to your ear. imagine the sound of a typewriter. THATS HOW IT SOUNDED LIKE FOR THE ENTIRETY OF THE EXAM WHEN I WAS SITTING NWCT TO HER. IM NOT EXAGGERATING. OTHER PEOPLE NOTICED TOO. THATS HOW INSANE IT SOUNDED. THIS GIRL WAS SOOOOO FUCKING LOUD TO THE POINT I COULDNT FOCUS ON ANYTHING AT ALL. i kept rereading the same introductory paragraph for one of the essays FOR 15 MINUTES. WHEN EVERYONE ELSE WAS STARTING TO WRITE

i dont understand. i GENUINELY dont understand. everyone took 5~15 minutes to get writing. that shouldve been atleast 5 minutes of quiet. BUT SHE STARTED WRITING LESS THAN A FUCKING MINUTE INTO THE FRQS. WHAT.

she was deadass slamming her fingers onto the keyboard. there is no need to do that. everyone was typing at a normal noise level. it wouldve been quiet. but also for some ungodly reason she kept writing NONSTOP ufkinvg CONSTANTLY. like everyone else would pause for a few minutes to read over their essay, to process the prompts. SHE JUST KEPT WRITING WITHOUT A BREAK FOR A SOLID 1 HOUR AND 40 MINUTES. AND SHE STARTED WRITING INSTANTLY WHEN SHE GOT TO THE FRQ PART TOO

i was so startled by this. i lost 40 minutes of time just to read and understand the prompts. and then i got writing. ONLY TO NOT EVEN FINISH ANYTHING PROPERLY?????? i wrote down 4 mid ahh paragraphs for my argumentative essay with a measly sentence for a conclusion. which i didnt even get to review. i wrote down 3 lines for my rhetorical analysis essay (which shouldhe been thr easiest fucking essay ever). i wrote a paragraph for my synthesis essay. all my essays were horrendous.

towards the last 5 minutes, when i was frantically typing to at least get something down, i looked over and SHE WAS STARING AT MY SCREEN?????????????????? AND WE MADE EYE CONTACT?????? im actually crine this girl deadass saw my pathetic ass paragraphs 😭 literally because of her. btw.

at the end of the exam a guy came up to me to ask how i could concentrate with the girl sitting next to me typing so loud. i told him i couldnt concentrate and i didnt finish 2 of my essays. he visibly grimaced. i asked 3 other people about the noise pollution and they all agreed that she was insanely loud. bro

im actually fucking losing it im tweaking out so bad. this has never happened to me before. ive never fumbled or messed up or failed this badly on anythign ever. ESPECIALLY NOT ON A to STANDARDIZED TEST? i never expected this to happen. i didnt know i could be distracted by loud noise this bad. im genuinely seething and malding and raging

its so upsetting knowing you wouldve gotten a good score. only for something like this to completely fuck you up. man it cost my parents so much money to enroll in this ap (because im not from the us). i wanted to start bawling mid exam because of how much money that was wasted because of this bullshittery. it took them so much work just to afford this.

im still so upset like wow. im not getting that money back. my parents paid so much money for me to do well only for me probably get a fucking. 2. godddddd this shit is so fucked up