u/Ralsei66

Its so fucking over. I thought i was 176cm until recently when i compared myself to a few boys in height and it turned out im a bit shorter, but thst still doesn't change anything in still taller than most girls my age and almost every woman, i will alway be a tall freak with doorframe shoulders and i cannot do anything even if i pass what does it matter i will never be petite short and pretty i will always be ugly and lanky at best and forever a disgusting Man at worst and i can only watch as it gets worse bcuz im 17 so im still going trough puberty and i cannot get on hrt bcuz my parents would see the bank account transaction or the package arrive, all i can do is watch as puberty fucks me up even more and i cannot stop it

Everyone i asked about how i looked like said i can pass but like can i really trust them how many of them just said it to make me happy, doesn't help that i open my eyes widely to make myself look better im photos which causes terrible wrinkes on my forehead which i can do nothing about without making my face even more disgusting as my eyes were the only thing keeping my face together and the only thing people complimented, i am just fucked and i can do absolutely nothing i wish that i could do something about it but i'm too much of a pussy to even try anything like sh or suicide

m-mmo- m-m...mogs m-m.... sigh i can't do it anymore

This is why i will never ever ask people to call me specific pronouns