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Ill be 46  on  July 10  I objectively look 35 to 40 due to early anti-aging protocols such as botox, trention,  moisturizing and in mid 40s stacking collagen producing modalities such as RF microneedling and coolpeels ( light laser resurfacing) no hair loss due to propecia ..  I exercise regularly im not jacked but I would say reasonably fit .

In late teens up to 30 had 2 long term relationships w American women 5 and 6 years ..   turned down another American woman in early 30s once I eyed overseas

Had a 2 year relationship w filipino woman brought her to states left her after a year being here ..  met a girl in thailand brought here over here been together 13 years

   Last 2 years  ive been back and forth w her  bc of me

   also in last 2 years ive been criss crossing thailand,  Philippines and India

Met many different types of girls from escorts too normal and very conservative

I went on this run bc of a health scare and the thai woman has honestly been as dramatic as American women can be i think she has BPD but obviously I'm not the beacon of mental health myself but I will say she is loyal as can be but she has caused so many problems I would have to make a separate post .

I know it sounds like im not the best at maintaining relationships which is true to an extent but I have gravitated towards toxic high drama women except the Filipino i was with actually was so nice and drama free it was  foreign to me ..  which in retrospect was a real good thing

So now in the last 2 years I went through a handful of women

Im currently talking to 2 one is 37 and other is 28 .. both from Philippines

The 28 is super conversative  I met her spent 3 days with her were still chatting even though I broke things off

The 37 year old I just start chatting but we'll see what happens .   Idk just seems like im in a loop ..  ive spent alot of time in thailand and Philippines..  it would be hard to adjust especially in Philippines

Even cebu ..   gyms dont compare , food sucks ..     I would need to rent a place somewhere i guess I could overcome it over time but definitely an adjustment period would have to take place .. 

I suppose this might be a midlife crisis ive heard so much about ..  

Financially im good . I have about 1.1 million in investments and have 3 businesses in florida so finances aren't really an issue . I dont have any male friends anymore as I more introverted and

  And had 4 kids ...so I was focused on them and business for a long time ..  and my friends moved , or slowly faded

Im not really asking for advice but just wanted to share my story and see what others viewpoints are ..   

Thanks