u/RealChristianBonanno
▲ 4 r/SDAM
Closed Eye Visions (Hallucinations) with Aphantasia and SDAM?
I (59 M) have Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar Type, OCD, and Panic Disorder (most likely Asperger's). I also have Aphantasia and SDAM, just understood I have these last year.
The odd thing is that while I can picture nothing when I close my eyes and try to visualize, I often have waking and/or night time involuntary closed eye visions (hallucinations). These can appear as horrific faces to sometimes just benign scenery. Most time they are stationary, black and white, but sometime sin color and in motion.
This is odd to me and wondering if anyone else has the experience with Aphantasia and SDAM.
I think some in my family may have Familial Mesial Temporal Lobe Epilepsy.
u/RealChristianBonanno — 3 days ago
▲ 1 r/Aphantasia
Closed Eye Visions (Hallucinations) with Aphantasia and SDAM?
I (59 M) have Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar Type, OCD, and Panic Disorder (most likely Asperger's). I also have Aphantasia and SDAM, just understood I have these last year.
The odd thing is that while I can picture nothing when I close my eyes and try to visualize, I often have waking and/or night time involuntary closed eye visions (hallucinations). These can appear as horrific faces to sometimes just benign scenery. Most time they are stationary, black and white, but sometime sin color and in motion.
This is odd to me and wondering if anyone else has the experience with Aphantasia.
I think some in my family may have Familial Mesial Temporal Lobe Epilepsy.
u/RealChristianBonanno — 3 days ago
▲ 4 r/SDAM
Temporal Lobe Epilepsy and SDAM
Just started reading this paper but was wondering if anyone here has any symptoms of Temporal Lobe Focal Aware seizures. Since we know that SDAM is related to the right hippocampus which is in the right temporal lobe, this would make sense and it tracks with my experiences. This is freaking me out a bit since I check all these boxes and my pdoc once said it was a possibility.
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Focal Aware Seizures (Auras)
These act as an early warning sign that the seizure is starting. They can be subtle and usually last just a few seconds:
- Sensory changes: Odd or unusual tastes and smells.
- Cognitive feelings: A sudden sense of intense déjà vu (feeling like something has happened before) or jamais vu (feeling unfamiliar in a familiar place).
- Intense emotions: Sudden, unprovoked fear, panic, anxiety, anger, sadness, or joy.
- Physical sensations: A rising, "roller coaster" or sick feeling that starts in the stomach and moves up to the chest or throat.
u/RealChristianBonanno — 4 days ago
▲ 7 r/SDAM
Newly Diagnosed, 59 M
Just saying hi.
Along with SDAM, I have Aspergers, OCD, and Bipolar Disorder. I also have Aphantasia which I did not know was so highly correlated with SDAM.
This is freaking me out a lot, no idea who I am because I have nothing to fall back on, and this explains it. It also explains a lot of the social issues I had in my life. People often got angry with me because I have no memories of our social interactions.
u/RealChristianBonanno — 4 days ago
▲ 21 r/VanLife
Living OUT of my Van. (A walk around Missoula, MT)
Just a reminder for my mentally ill self. Do not live in your van, live out of it. Took a walk around Missoula, MT yesterday. Here are some photos.
u/RealChristianBonanno — 7 days ago
▲ 377 r/urbancarliving
In a park, in the rain.
There’s nothing better than having a good park to chill out in during a rain storm and just sitting back and watching TV. It makes the stress of his life go away, even if it is just for a little while. And it gives me an excuse to do nothing and be still.
u/RealChristianBonanno — 9 days ago