u/RealFunnyNoodles

Good evening Reddit. Typically I’m not the type of person to ask the internet for advice but I’m desperate. For first time in years I feel lost and like a failure; As the title suggests. I’m from the United States, and this is my first Fourth of July begging single in almost 4 years. I broke up with my ex about six months ago because we couldn’t work out or future without her going to her brother and friends and making fun of me behind my back. This evening, after the fire works, my youngest brother (8M) was being a typical eight year old in the car when I told him to sit back so his belt won’t lock up, in a very calm voice (I’m disabled so my family rides together 90% of the time for this next part to make sense) my mother shoots me a line of “when I was your age, I had you. A complete child for me to take care of” and that hit like a stack of bricks. The whole ride home I was silent. Those words hitting me like a cannon ball. We got home, my parents went and shot bottle rockets with him and I went to my room. Then for the first time in years, broke down and cried. Thinking “I’m almost 22, not s/o, two college degrees, and no ft job. I’m a failure compared to my family.” It was one of those that cut deep.

In long, any advice on what I do from here?

TLDR: family went nuclear and now feel insecure. Not knowing what to think or do.

Edit: I have my A.S and B.S degrees.

Good evening Reddit. Typically I’m not the type of person to ask the internet for advice but I’m desperate. For first time in years I feel lost and like a failure; As the title suggests. I’m from the United States, and this is my first Fourth of July begging single in almost 4 years. I broke up with my ex about six months ago because we couldn’t work out or future without her going to her brother and friends and making fun of me behind my back. This evening, after the fire works, my youngest brother (8M) was being a typical eight year old in the car when I told him to sit back so his belt won’t lock up, in a very calm voice (I’m disabled so my family rides together 90% of the time for this next part to make sense) my mother shoots me a line of “when I was your age, I had you. A complete child for me to take care of” and that hit like a stack of bricks. The whole ride home I was silent. Those words hitting me like a cannon ball. We got home, my parents went and shot bottle rockets with him and I went to my room. Then for the first time in years, broke down and cried. Thinking “I’m almost 22, not s/o, a college degree, and no ft job. I’m a failure compared to my family.” It was one of those that cut deep.

In long, any advice on what I do from here?

TLDR: family went nuclear and now feel insecure. Not knowing what to think or do.