u/Reasonable-Point-713

You know what i really despise about spiritual world?
Not being able to hear spirits/daemons.

Like i do see Daemons. They just look at me for a second once i look at their eyes they just end up vanishing when i invoked sphere of Golachab outside. I was walking and randomly i had thoughts of my divine spark coming from the world of chaos. And all of that i knew it was one of the emmisary making itself known to me and giving me those thoughts (my center skull was burning outside. Feeling not literally)
so yeah. Possibly because of me coming from the chaos itself meaning i am too intense for anyone as i belong to nobody. No current or anything. And i have the power to do tikkun as Jews say. Lift up those sparks and free sitra achra from emptiness. But why the fuck would i? I fucking despise god. Hes not a tyrant or anything. But i just want to rule a motherfucking something in the after life. Hence im doing left hand path. But ofc its impossible. I have no patrons or anything. Which is weird considering i had powers to destroy people i felt like a golem too but because of me forcing my neshemah back to my skull when it tried to leave… thats when those powers vanished. And i was haunted by a demon because of that. I do know they wanted me to become a vessel of pure destruction and i rejected them. But i literally do rituals TO BECOME IT AGAIN but they dont care anymore. I hate everything fuck this world. also when i saw Samael for the first time his presence screamed as if he wants to kill me and hates me completely.

And even HE did not speak. Just poisoned me. Which led to the golem feeling.

I miss feeling like a golem… wind wouldnt move my body. Heavy presence. At night before sleep my left arm moving on its own to calibrate. I know why i felt like it though, Samael has put toxins in my body. Hence that feeling came.
But when i forced my divine soul from my skull back to itself when it tried to leave, the feeling stopped.
Meaning; if i had not done that. My divine soul would have gone to world of chaos as i saw for a quick second.
My body would function still as a golem.
And i would have drawn everything from the sitra achra / evil inclination.
Meaning i would have been destructive and all thoughts were come from Qliphoth. And all thoughts would eventually manifest.

I have really done a shit job.
I miss it.
I’m gonna try to do that again i guess… but when i went to evoke Samael He didnt come. Instead it was 7 shattered vessels from the world of chaos. Kings of Edom.
Gonna try it again maybe. Idk.
Just a weird experience hence i documented it here.😂

If you say you are in sitra achra. You go through qliphoth etc. Then you do not stay in that current for long enough. If you did - you would be lawless. Thats what sitra achra does to you. You become one with your evil inclination. Why? Because thats just metaphysics. There is no other gods. Only Ein Sof. The source/ God who let Jews out from Egypt. There is NO other god. However - there are Shedim, Mazzikin, Parasites from the sitra achra, Samael, Lillith etc etc. They all serve Hashem/God. They are on left side. Meaning EVIL INCLINATION. study kabbalah for once. The jewish kind. Dont you dare tell me i am racist for staying in that current for months. No, i am not. Forces and Daemons do not care about your motherfucking state if ur a Jew or not. There is only Judaism. Nothing else. If you go through what i did then you would know. Also Gehinnom does exist and it is for the most wicked. Like… Sabbatai Zhevi unfortunately. Oh and if you hate Jews. Those same forces you “work” with? They also hate you. They all serve Hashem. 🤷 there is NOTHING but EIN SOF. Everything you do is permitted by Him. So… about vegans. You are a hypocrite. You are EATING PLANTS. EVERYTHING HAS A DIVINE SPARK. You are a murderer for eating a divine spark. 😂 they are conscious btw ;) ur evil as fuck.

Question about Neshemah What happens to it once it leaves but the body is still alive. I.e the Neshemah leaves because of doing rituals for Sitra Achra and Olam Ha Tohu. What are the possibilities that it happens to IT and to the body/ person. I know he becomes a shell. Empty. Like those klipot. But i ask what happens after death also? And does the person automatically kill people for example? Steal things etc. Or can he still choose not to do it?

What happens to it once it leaves but the body is still alive. I.e the Neshemah leaves because of doing rituals for Sitra Achra and Olam Ha Tohu. What are the possibilities that it happens to IT and to the body/ person. I know he becomes a shell. Empty. Like those klipot. But i ask what happens after death also? And does the person automatically kill people for example? Steal things etc. Or can he still choose not to do it?

Kings of edom…

Hey so uh… im a black brother i got inverted by chokmah fot stating i am a god to ein sof and all of that shit. But uh to make the story short… did anyone see kings of edom?? In the shattered aspects. Because oh boy i did… they looked like black rectangular shape but the bottom was very sharp looking as if glass shard. You know when you grab a broken glass and the middle part of the bottom is sharp and you use it to cut things. Anywho the inner was filled with complete darkness and eyes. As i gazed upon it, they began to move and the eyes started to blink infinitely when i looked away they were stuck and didnt blink anymore. In a way i gave life to the kelipot😂 but in seriousness before i saw them at that night. I felt getting overlayed. Maybe like armor-like? But then again if it were a good thing i wouldnt have a dream of them wanting to destroy me. Idk why they want to destroy me when they claimed me to be armilus. Maybe i gotta let it happen idk man. But we will see what will happen i guess

Hey so uh… im a black brother i got inverted by chokmah fot stating i am a god to ein sof and all of that shit. But uh to make the story short… did anyone see kings of edom?? In the shattered aspects. Because oh boy i did… they looked like black rectangular shape but the bottom was very sharp looking as if glass shard. You know when you grab a broken glass and the middle part of the bottom is sharp and you use it to cut things. Anywho the inner was filled with complete darkness and eyes. As i gazed upon it, they began to move and the eyes started to blink infinitely when i looked away they were stuck and didnt blink anymore. In a way i gave life to the kelipot😂 but in seriousness before i saw them at that night. I felt getting overlayed. Maybe like armor-like? But then again if it were a good thing i wouldnt have a dream of them wanting to destroy me. Idk why they want to destroy me when they claimed me to be armilus. Maybe i gotta let it happen idk man. But we will see what will happen i guess