Tonight Feels Like My Breaking Point
Today genuinely feels like my last breaking point. My mind hasn’t been quiet for weeks and I’m no longer able to hold these thoughts inside. Tomorrow debt collectors are coming near my house and I’m terrified my mom will find out everything.
A bad phase and some terrible decisions pushed me into borrowing money thinking I could recover fast, but instead everything spiraled out of control. Every day I wake up with fear in my chest, checking my phone nonstop, avoiding people, pretending I’m okay when mentally I’m collapsing.
The amount may look small to other people, but for me it has completely taken over my life. I’ve tried everything to get out of this situation. I tried consolidating the loans, but my CIBIL score is already damaged so nobody is willing to help.
I asked almost every friend I had hoping someone would come forward, even for temporary support, but nobody did. That feeling hurts more than the debt itself sometimes.
feel mentally exhausted, ashamed, and completely stuck.