Pull the Trigger
Stumble and fall,
Over and over again.
Expanding chest
Ribs aching
Slick with sweat.
Hate me.
Berate me.
Tell me how much of a fucking
Failure I am.
Kick me when I’m down.
Follow me around
With glazed over eyes
Always watching,
Always seeing
My
Failures.
Tell me how sick I make you.
And I’ll tell you right back,
Fuck
You.
Shadows snake
Up and down
My body
like knives.
Have you seen them?
They won’t let me go…
They won’t
Release
Me.
Hold me in your grasp.
Tighten your fingers around
My neck. I don’t
Need to breathe
Anyway.
It’s been too long since
I’ve come to the surface.
Poked my head
Above the water.
I’m just the same as you.
Can’t you see it?
You’re just one step ahead,
One mistake behind.
I’m only you with a bit more
Rage.
Everyone’s got a fuse.
Everyone’s got something
That makes them tick.
So go ahead,
Aim the barrel at me.
I am but a product
Of shit genes and
Environment.
Stick the muzzle to my forehead.
Hold it steady,
You don’t want to miss.
I promise I won’t even struggle
As you
Pull
The
Trigger.