Just b/c there are people who will understand
I’m not doin well at all these days. I take my medication, I try to leave the house, I try to do my job, I try to connect with people…. But it hasn’t helped. This feels like suffering and it’s awful and I hate it. I want to feel like myself again and I can ID steps to maybe resolve some things but that’s no guarantee.
I feel bad all over. Like my relationships with my own body and brain are all out of whack. It helps that I’m not alone (even tho I hate that anyone else would ever feel this way). Hopefully, you know you’re not alone either.
RE: Therapy
I’ve had therapists before and only 3/7 (or however many) have been helpful. I don’t want to go through the bullshit of going to find a therapist again. My insurance prefers “time controlled” therapy, anyway (short-term, you’re sick, now congratulations you’re better). I’ve been like this the whole time. I agree therapy could help, but it’s on the list of “things I can do to resolve this” but that list is a marathon and I’m having a hard time getting out of bed.