u/Regular-Lychee9725

like when your laying in bed before going to sleep and your mind is wandering and your reacting to some of those thoughts as actual words at times? Playing fictional scenarios. As visuals or words. but it isn’t conscious word by word thought, like how you would read. and sometimes they’re words but they are faint. if I come up with a conclusion I couldn’t recount it and articulate it? Guided more by emotions kind of? not rumination either.

she just bought a video game console and she is playing it right now as I type this. I’m annoyed. I don’t have my own room. I’m sitting in the bathroom. I’ll have to be here until she stops playing. which will most likely be hours from now. it’s 10:01 pm. I wish she didn’t buy that damned console. or the waste of money tv. hours. I’m so annoyed. (Might delete later)

9:24am

It's makeup in person testing today and I forgot. Or didn't know. I missed two in person testing days. I worry this will take me closer to "dooms day" or the day CPS and the police will come banging on our door asking us to pack our bags out of the blue..I'm scared. Even though I did this to myself, let me be allowed to cry please. I also have the second day of therapy today. I could express this to the therapist. But I'm scared of vulnerability hangover. And what would it even do to relieve this situation. My ear is aching for some reason. I hope it stops soon. A rare post where my problems actually sound logical 🙁😣😫😵‍💫🤢🤮🫠