Very early on in my journey (mtf), went through a bit of a mental breakdown, but need to work.. advice on boymoding?
So I had a little bit of time away from work due to my mental health. Things started to get better but then dysphoria has kicked back in after being, i guess, dormant for about 9 months. I wasn't really making any progress into how I felt, like making a choice as to if this is who I am or not. And there isn't a problem I have that isn't made so much worse if I don't have a job..
The feeling is pretty damn strong, but I don't want to fully come out at work in case it does go away. Not only would it be awkward for everyone involved, but I know at least one person in the office is right wing. I don't know if he's transphobic, but I'd rather not take that chance if I don't have to.
So my question is about boymoding, which (and correct me if I'm wrong) is kinda the thing we do in this situation? I guess I'm asking about the mindset involved. If this is my genuine truth I don't want to lose that because it's easier to just keep pretending and be miserable.
My current living situation is at home in a space I don't really feel comfortable exploring myself, but I may be moving in with some very open-minded friends soon where I will be FULLY exploring how I feel. But is that all there is to it?
Sorry if that's vague or if i'm using any terminology incorrectly. There's a whole lot happening in my head and this was a bit of a brain dump. x