u/Remarkable_List2547

hello so basically lately I have had trouble eating since I’m nauseous alot of the time and I always see it as a bad or thing that makes me anxious since well I just don’t like eating because it’s scary it makes me feel more ill knowing that now if I ykw it’ll actually be something and not nothing. but not eating makes nausea worse too- and I just wanna eat normally man I don’t eat enough ☹️ I see eating as such a dangerous thing sorry I’m like really tired rn so this is lazily written

greetings I am just bored so writing a lot of Reddit posts of whatever comes to mind, btw im a minor and stay up decently late it’s just gotten farther overtime (I currently stay up 4am-6am typically and wake up from 12 in the afternoon to 4pm) my mom has a lot of issues with it says it’s not good for me etc which I know but that doesn’t make it easier to stop I glance at my clock and it’s already almost 5am again- I’ve always loved staying up late it just feels way more allowing and peaceful it’s like there is no pressure everyone’s sleeping and I’m alone I get to have my time alone with nothing to worry about and let’s not forget whenever I’m beyond tired the amazing absolute fantastic feeling while closing your eyes also when I get to that point I feel just overall very safe and at peace like everything will be alright kinda weird ! but I love it. I know none of it is good for me but I also can’t stop but I have to fix it cause I can’t actually do this forever well whatever just a random rant I suppose thanks for reading !!

see what the fuck am I supposed to do sorry for the harsh start, but I’m legit 13. I cannot leave my goddamn house I can SOMETIMES go in my front or backyard but taking a walk? A drive in the car? A STORE?!! absolutely not. like genuinely i cannot have this be with me this long but it is back in 2024 I also had a period where my agoraphobia was kinda bad I couldn’t go to public places such as stores or anything like that but I WAS able to go on walks and car drives with ease. well car drives were a bit harder but still I got over that. but it came back way worse in December after I FINALLY tried medication and ended up having the worst reaction to it, by the way important factor is that I have severe GAD and emetophobia, and I also happen to most commonly get nauseous as a anxious symptom. yeah tell me about it so great isn’t it. awesome combo ain’t it. I cannot do it I will NOT force myself. and tiny exposures I’m so done with I don’t even wanna cause everything is just too scary but if it’s soo tiny then I’ll get sick of it and quit cause it’s boring also when I stay consistent sometimes that makes me anxious in itself because I’m like ok well I did it before if I can’t do it now I gotta worry !! how could I not do it again?? if ykwim. ykw I don’t even always feel safe in my house alone so everything is basically batshit scary to me since I’m just nauseous everyday anyway even in my own bed it is jsut way worse for outside anyway I don’t rlly know what I am hoping for posting this. but oh well thank you for reading if you did .