u/Repulsive-Till-5791

My husband 40M and I 39F have been married for 7 years and agreed we would have kids in 2 years. That never happened because of our careers and now apparently we're too old and have low egg count and it'll be very difficult to conceive. My husband says its ok and doesn't care if we have kids or not and I feel.the exact opposite.

Anyway I convinced him to go through IUI and it failed. And ive been devastated.

He doesn't seem to understand. I have tried therapy but would rather just talk to an app. But I dont know which.How do i deal with this emotionally? I might be reacting a lot n he probably thinks im insane.

What do you think?

Ive not been able to find a therapist i can really connect with. Im a really private person anyway and was considering using an app instead. Does anyone have any good ones that they have personally used?

Sharing this for newbies so they know what to expect. Start with AMH and other health n fertility tests on Day1 of period.

Followed by a scan on day2 and HSG on day 8 (which feels like extreme period cramps). I was asked if I wanted to do it under anesthesia and I declined and feel it was the right decision.

This followed by regular scans leading up to day 12 which is is when my follicle ruptured and was given a trigger shot in the stomach.

IUI is also a painful procedure but nothing unbearable. I needed to rest the rest of the day and was back to normal the next morning. I was on dydrogesterone twice a day for 2 weeks till I tested.

I tested negative 2 weeks later. Apparently the meds imitate pregnancy often so you feel like you're pregnant and then you test negative. For me personally it was quite an emotional journey and not an easy one.

We're debating if we want to do it again.