I took this order much too late but accepted that the second half of the bundle would be late. However, after I finished the order, I checked and it says it was on-time, but it definitely wasn’t. Is it just because I got the first half of the bundle done on time?
(I don’t know if order numbers matter enough to block out so I did just in case.)
I’m only 20. I moved out of my mom’s house at 18 with a decision I made the day prior at a concert with a friend I met through online school. 4 hours away. I moved in and that friend got a boyfriend. That led me down a dark path that ended up with me in the hospital and inpatient. I got out and went back in not even a week later (inpatient). During that second visit, I met someone who introduced me to my now boyfriend. Later dropping that person as I moved to where my boyfriend lived along with a group of friends. In a different state. At this point it had been 6 months since I left my mom’s. I shared an apartment with a friend, and 4 months later my boyfriend moved in. Yada yada, Another 6 months and I BUY A HOUSE. Only in my name, but boyfriend still lives with me. Everything was amazing and great until 4 days after we moved in. He had stayed late at work on a day he was supposed to take me to my therapy appointment, and I therefore missed it. He had simply forgotten. I split on him, which I didn’t realize at the time of. Shortly after, he was let go from his job. I had convinced myself he was no good and about a month and a half later, I broke up with him. Then I broke down in a way I only have one other time. We ended up getting back together because I realized I couldn’t live without him. Few days later, I quit my job. I had been struggling to go there anyways for weeks, with panic attacks as soon as I woke up, freezing me in place until I convinced myself to call-off. I stopped going to therapy. A month later, my cat died at 3 yrs old unexpectedly. That was in March. Since then, I can’t ever know what to expect from myself. I have taken out so much anger towards my boyfriend and I hate myself so much for it. He’s so understanding and it hurts that I feel I’m hurting him. I have good days, but mostly I will get upset or pissed at least once a day. I’m tired. I still can’t find a job and we’ve been doing delivery services to make mortgage and bills. I feel so much guilt for every little thing. I don’t know what to do.