u/Repulsive_Past_548

I just saw a person at the McDonald's that has a seemingly feminine face, that person's face is so perfectly ratioed. That person is wearing sports attire, sports shorts (not those super short shorts, just normal knee length shorts). Also reminds me of my recent crush (sadly she doesn't want to talk to me, and I don't know what to do anymore), also short hair and tomboyish looking, but retaining feminine facial features. She also wears that style when playing sports.

I keep observing that person, but still can't determine that person's gender. I thought maybe a girl. And because it reminds me of my crush, of course I start to become more interested in observing that person.

When I went to the toilet, that seemingly female looking person happened to be washing hands at the basin area outside the toilet. And when I entered the toilet (male toilet), I noticed the toilet had just been flushed, because the water was refilling.

What the fuck. I thought that's a girl. Have I finally gone insane?

Edit: I'M NOT GAY

I just really got deeply hurt by this girl I liked, and we ended without even officially starting, because I'm too sensitive, making it too overwhelming for her (I guess, I never know, she refuses to communicate and express her thoughts with me). Perhaps my existence alone is already scary, what a curse.

I will blame myself for not being socially active and get to know more people, so when she appears in my life, I became so needy and centric around her, which eventually scares her off.

But I really don't know how to be socially active while not overthinking things all the time. My social circle is really small, thanks to my introvert and overthinking self.

Is it possible to just turn off my HSP and be like everybody else who is having a normal social life?