She just told me "if you think you are ever going to pass as a woman, you have got to be kidding yourself"
I’m distraught, I’m emotionally hurt, she loves me, but she absolutely does not respect me! I don’t know what else to say. Fml
I was googling about how hrt affects the nipple location, and the AI thoroughly explained that although my boobs will be in the same spot they are now, I’m not missing out on anything when it comes to looks, most cis women don’t get that “buttcrack” look without a bra, so i will be no different.
As I was reading this, at one point, I noticed that I had one of the hardest erections I’ve ever had!
I think my body really wants a nice pair a titties and a sexy lace bra to hold them…
I’m kind of ashamed about how this manifests itself though. Like boobs are sexy, but am I really supposed to get aroused from the thought of HAVING them?!
I also don’t get this reaction when I think about having a vagina, so I guess my body doesn’t want that, it just wants boobs?
I was attempting to twirl in one of my favorite summer dresses for her, and she told me “girls don’t actually do that” and that I have some “fantastical view of femininity that belongs in a TV show and not in real life.”
Is she right? Am I making a mockery of women by indulging in super girly habits? Cause that’s how she’s making me feel rn…
If you know any cis women, do they do it? I want to make sure my answers aren’t totally biased because trans girlies love their euphoria lol.
Almost 21, Pre everything, just shaved and showered. Will I ever be pretty and pass? Will I need FFS? I hate my face so much, my body isn’t that bad. I got a nice ass and legs, albeit a ton of body and facial hair, which I hate.
Does anyone else feel like this? I am currently in the process of coming out to my distant family. But my father said something really interesting the other day and I think he made a really good point.
I feel like my main reason to transition is that I’m envious of girls. Mostly their bodies and their clothes. It’s always been about aesthetics. The pretty dresses and the frilly tops and the flowing and tight skirts, and the silky soft hair and skin, and the heels, snd the jewelry, and a little bit of the way they bond with each other.
I say this because when it comes to the self recognition aspect of things, calling myself a woman feels quite wrong to me. I feel like I’m telling a lie to myself and others. This happens with feminine names and she/her pronouns too. I feel saddened by this, as it’s what I want. I don’t want to be a man. I don’t next of be non binary. I want to be a girl. But my brain just won’t accept it. Maybe I just haven’t tried that much to get over the awkwardness. Is the name and pronouns just a thing that takes time to rewire?
This feels like my last major obstacle to starting HRT. So whatever thoughts you have, please leave them!
Also I like my 🍆, and that I guess kind of feels like it invalidates my desire to be a woman. Maybe I just want to be a feminine person? I feel like I need to be a woman to achieve the things I want to though physically. Plus my black and white thinking brain really doesn’t want to deal with all the complications non binary people have, that prospect feels just as wrong as being stuck as a guy does!
Help…