u/Resilient_9920

I have mastrubation addicotm very bad I have gone talked to strangers sex chat and so on , skipped food to do and destroyed my life depleted my life force to a point nothing is left now i.sirll do without control ... Another i don't do anything because it is isright or someone said me i am very indisciplined I started an instument t I was average I gave up unless I see some spark I don't even try , I started some work and I didn't find it useful I just want to do with fullest devotion because it is my dharma and not on my likes and dislikes . I need to break this karmic pattern as soon as possible both together complement each other and destroy my life nicely . Need a way out