How do I tell my parents i need/want therapy?
i’m unsure if this is the right community or whatever to put this in, but I think it’ll be what gets me the most help.
i’m 16 years old, and i’ve been having thoughts of suicide since i was around 10. I started self harming when i was 12, and then quit. my parents caught me, and then did nothing about it and offered me no support.
i’ve never actually been about to go through with killing myself, but it’s all i ever think about and it drives me crazy. i’m so tired.
my mum is argumentative and if i tell her she’ll spin it into her being ‘the worst mother in the world’, or she’ll just get mad, or she’ll say it’s teenage hormones, her favourite phrase. my dad is an incompetent stoner who laughs when i express any kind of issue, so i don’t go to him about much.
i feel so hopeless. i text a helpline at least once a month just to get my thoughts out because i don’t want to burden the people i love with my issues and make them worry.
i don’t know what to do anymore. i’m so exhausted. every day is just a fight with my own mind. i’m either comparing myself to everyone around me, or i’m convincing myself that no one likes me, or i’m thinking about how i’d go about killing myself in different ways.
i know id never do anything because the thought of actually being dead and gone sends me spiralling into a panic attack. i’m a coward. i’ve been clean from self harm for like 3 years aswell so im good at ignoring it when it rears its ugly head. i’m not gonna harm myself or anyone else.
advice is greatly appreciated and needed.