I told my wife about my crush.
Edit:Thank you everyone for your replies. I'm going to be too ashamed to read this in the morning but I will try. Thanks again everyone.
A little over a year ago I met a woman. It was a love at first sight sort of thing. We talked a bit over a few weeks but I eventually ghosted her. I was experiencing extreme limerance and I got very close to giving this woman my cell number.
My wife and I have been together for over 15 years. Our son was born 11 years ago. I've only spoken to my father one time. After my son was born, he reached out and I rejected him. I guess this has made me feel an unwavering loyalty to my son. I guess this is why I've stayed with my wife for so long. I do love my wife but if my son wasn't born we wouldn't be together.
I can't stop thinking about this other woman though. I've been no contact with her for almost a year and she still invades my thoughts. I dream about her. I can't control my dreams. I'm not trying to be like this..
I love my wife. I love my son. I just want to be a good dad and a good husband.. but it's been nearly twelve months and this woman is still on my mind. I can't control what I dream about. I just have to stay away from this other woman no matter what.
I'm also a high functioning alcoholic. One night, some time ago, I had too much to drink. I ended up confessing everything to my wife. This was the second time i brought up the other woman but I was much more emotional about it this time.. it's hard for me to communicate my feelings also.. especially because I I don't want to hurt my wife. She is genuinely my best friend...
I guess I don't know what Im getting at here. I guess I just needed to put this somewhere. I'm just going to keep avoiding the other woman and doing my best to be a good man for my wife and my son. I love them so much.
Thanks for reading.
If anyone has any advice I thank you. I probably won't reply to be entirely honest but I promise I will read every comment.