Need a feedback for my character (english isn't my first language)
one of my character grew up in dysfunctional family, suffered with verbal and sometimes physical abuse. Also parents constant fight over financial problems which would left her more and more traumatized. Society also didn't treated her right, the story is set in south asian country (i am from south asia so). Relatives constant neglect and not so good treatment to the family whenever they suffer with financial instability leave the family totally isolated and unstable. The mother is anxious way too anxious about things all the time and well of course take it out on the daughter(main character) The mother doesn't have good time in her life, she got married (arrange marriage) in chaos one guy wanting to marry her so bad that he even talked to the brother but fail (no the mother didn't liked her) and before marriage the mother childhood spent in a stereotypical way under patriarchal society, she didn't had the right to choose, she lived in fear most of the time, and lived her life in a way she won't get k*lled (honor k*lling). All of this of course made the mother not live happily she couldn't discover herself and saw women being punished for choosing partners or just simply choosing something for themselves or being punished for other's crimes. This was the mother's trauma which causes the mother to choose things that would allow her to just survive and not live. The father is toxic, he was once jailed when he got caught for the crime he didn't committed, he was there but wasn't involved in the crime but well. he couldn't lived his dreams, he grew up not wanting to obey anyone for anything. he wanted to become a martial artist but family never supported he also never had non problematic friends. After the jail drama he did got serious about life but he have already made his wife anxious as when he was in jail no one ever from the family supported his wife. she was all alone with worries of her husband being in jail, money problem and raising one child all on her own. before this jail drama the husband tried to invest in business which fails horribly and leads them to a little bit of dept. His wife have now developed what we can call financial anxiety and she is always suspicious (rightfully so) of who her husband gives money. He does gives money to like mother and sister even if his own family can barely afford. And the people he gives money to sometimes are actually have ok financial conditions not really good but not bad either. Alright all of this conflict makes husband and wife be toxic to each other sometimes get physically abusive with each other and children too. My main character have a brother too. Both of them suffers because of this conflict and both react differently but in harmful way. The brother end up being k*lled in arson and this pushes my main character more and more into darkness. she grew up isolated from her peers, had no proper friends growing up, very little to no focus in classroom at all. Teachers always complaining. My mc was never able to fit in anywhere and this causes her to be bullied by her mother all the time. Mc would also get compared a lot which k*lls their self-esteem every attempt my mc made to impress the mother or sometime father just failed. She was talented, she could draw and is actually interested in many topics but very bad in memorizing text book stuff which leads to her being below average student. She suffers like her mother as she is a woman too. not being able to choose anything for herself because she is a girl. The mother would constantly monitor her would bully her even when she was child, would say things like 'who is the guy stuck in your dirty head that you can't focus on the right things' Mc was never even interested because i made her asexual\aromantic. But even if she was not interested society have always looks at her suspiciously. These types of things of course made her angrier frustrated and her defense had always been just be away from everyone. Except on cousin sister she wouldn't talk really much to anyone else. School also didn't treated her right, there was this one female teacher who would bully her a lot. Why? because the teacher family had some conflict with the grandfather from mother side of mc. She ends up choosing the crime path. She don't suddenly chooses the crime path i will slowly push her towards that path. I want my main character to fit into anomic personality sociological concept. for that i want to make her more and more isolated that's why i slowly give death to every family member i described how brother dies. How the mother dies? Mc didn't give her her pills on time. yes she did it on purpose. The father was k*lled by the mafia leader because he didn't return the dept. he took. My mc under all the conflict she have been seeing and going through she have developed weird philosophies and beliefs and is also somewhat aware that non of what she beliefs is true. She wants to k*ll herself because she wants to dominate the most superior thing which is death, if she CHOOSE to die then she is more superior then death. Why she didn't k*ll herself yet then? because she wants to set up her death beautifully, she wants to built the house on the ocean's surface and then burn it and die in that fire. To her death is freedom that's why she believes she didn't k*ll her mother but set her free from her endless misery. And also the other people she k*lled weren't k*lled but set freed by her. (what do you guys think)