I'm stressed out about my future
Hello guys! For context, I'm a 19-year-old guy from Romania and I just finished high school. I'm about to start my bachelor's degree in September (in chemistry). However, I'm stressed out about my future, primarily because of money.
I live in an awful household. My parents fight all the time, and I live with my mentally handicapped older brother (who defecates in diapers, screams a lot, breaks things, doesn't know how to speak, etc.). We also have a bedbug infestation, a cockroach infestation, and some other things.
So, of course, I want to move out as soon as possible. That's why going to college is my golden ticket out. However, I need some money to get started. When I move out of this house, I basically want to buy everything "new" (not really brand new, more like clean) so that I can make sure I don't bring any bedbugs with me.
I'll most definitely be admitted on a scholarship (meaning I won't have to pay for university), receive a place in the dorms, and get school allowances. However, the thing is that I won't be receiving them from the first month of college (October), but rather from December or somewhere around then (when I do get them, I'll get them retroactively for the months I missed). Therefore, I need to get some money to last until I can at least get a part-time job to sustain myself.
There is just one thing. Right now, I don't have a job. I'm currently searching for one, but I can't find anything. Nobody is hiring me, for whatever reason.
I need to gather up about 4-5k lei (around 1k USD). If I can't gather that amount of money by September, there's no reason to go to university, because I fear the risks are just too big. For example, if I move there and only have enough money to survive for a few weeks until I can find a job, what happens if I can't land one? Then my money will simply run out, and I won't be able to pay for the dorms, food, or any of that stuff. I would basically just have to drop out (I want to mention that my family is poor, so they can't really give me any money). This is simply a risk I don't want to take, and it stresses me out quite a lot.