u/Rikkixxo

I'm lost.

Hey guys.. So the place I was renting was up for sale, and unfortunately it sold - the person wants to move into it, so by law I do have to move.

I just found out yesterday. I was very shocked but i was calm- for most of the day. I did break down twice, but not as bad as I thought I'd ?

I get waves of complete rage where I want to destroy everything - but surprisingly Ive been able to hold myself back from doing so.

I'm worried I'm not letting out my aggression or sadnesses and more or less bottling most of it... that I'll snap and itll be at the people who dont deserve it etc. I am very confrontational right now.. Ive for the most part kept away from my phone so I don't lash out over things that have nothing to do with my current situation- because of how bottled I feel like I'm being.

Ive contacted the LTB for guidance and paralegal. I do know my rights, but I'm so paranoid I'm being lied to I'm having a hard time.

I also haven't been sleeping properly in over a week. Maybe am hour or 2 a night..

Im also very worried this will triggered a huge low ajd I'll shut right down. I have a lot to do before I move and I cannot go into a low and shut down. Im scared of that.

Am I handling this well? Should I be concerned about my reactions?

Fyi ive been properly medicated for 1.5 years which has helped tremendously so I know that plays a huge factor.

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u/Rikkixxo — 8 hours ago

Morning painting

A nice morning with, a coffee in my favourite skull mug, some flavoured water in my favourite skull metal canister, an education YouTube video.. && I'm all set to paint this morning. #findwhatbringsyoupeace

u/Rikkixxo — 7 days ago

Meaningful tattoo

the tattoo i got for my girl. right above the key to my heart - cause let's face it. she was.💕💔

my cat passed so this is in memory of her.

fine line detail

half of a heart because she is forever will be the other half of my heart.

black and grey

u/Rikkixxo — 8 days ago

Its a hobby, for my mental health.💕

Ive been doing paint by numbers since I was a kid. as I got better I'd get bigger paintings with more detail. this hobby helps my mental health and helps me to calm down when I've been running all day.

u/Rikkixxo — 8 days ago
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My Darling Mynx

She was everything to me. now that she is gone, there is a big piece of my soul missing. its so empty and quiet. I dread coming home to nothing. when I had her, I was never truly alone. id trade ANYTHING in the world to have her back.

u/Rikkixxo — 9 days ago