u/Risingdayss

I wanna know how you guys go through the false dysphoria and the envy? My envy is so bad that like I don’t understand why it’s happening to me. Like I always liked women and now I’m starting to think if I’ve been confusing it for envy. Idk I’m so confused cuz when I feel envy towards girls like it’s not like a good feeling it’s more of an anxiety feeling. But idk anymore I lost my identity I feel lost, feels like my identity of a boy was stripped away from me. Now I’m starting to think I never liked being a boy to begin with (which is crazy lmao cuz I know I did) but it doesn’t feel real saying that. I’m so mentally exhausted that I can’t eat, I don’t go to the gym anymore. Like it fucking sucks.

Are you guys obsessively ruminating the past to see if u had any signs of being trans to find a relief that ur not trans. that’s what I’ve been doing and it’s making me crazy like im stuck in a loop. Like ive been trying to see if like did i like the way i dressed growing up or did I envy women in high school? Like it’s scary because i dont think i did at all cuz ive always liked girls when I was a little boy so idk .

Hey guys honestly at a really low point in my life. I mean I’ve been diagnosed since I was 16. Had themes since I was 12 but this one takes the cake. Honestly don’t even know if I’m trans or not. Feels like I want to be a woman but it’s not even that I think it’s just my identity of a man being taken away from me which sucks. Like I keep constantly asking questions “do u want to be a woman or a man” over and over and over. “Do I want to be masculine or feminine” over and over. It feels like I have gender dysphoria, idk if I do but like it doesn’t make sense that I do because I never once showed any signs I always loved being a boy growing up I mean I never felt like anything was off about my gender I don’t think I really don’t know anymore with this ocd. I knew what transgender and gender dysphoria was before I started having this theme so. It happened when my friend asked me about it and then I started with the “what if I have it” and then it just got worse and worse where it became like feelings more than thoughts. And I know people experience false feelings about their gender that makes it feel like they are not who they are and want to be the opposite gender. It’s gotten so bad to the point where like it feels like I have to come out about being trans or something which feels so weird and off deep down lol. Look I’ve always down boy things manly things, always like having guy talks, always like my genitals lol so idk what change. Btw it went away idk how it went away for couple years but I’ll get spikes here and there but idk cuz I like people seeing me as a guy it’s not where I’m a guy because I’m doing it to please them. Just all anxiety, feels like I’m just destined to be not a guy anymore which sucks.

21M here and I have severe ocd. I had all type of themes, but this is just so bad. It’s so bad where the point where I doubt it I ever liked being a boy growing up (which I did, I know I did) and it’s so bad where like false feelings are ruining my life. Like it feels like I want to be a woman and that I don’t like being a boy which ruins me because like I feel like deep down I do like being a boy which is why ocd goes against what u are. I remmeber it all started when my friend told me gender dysorphia and I remember questioning and stuff and then it went downhill from there. Like I remmeber when a girl liked me in high school and I jd my first kiss I was so happy because it was like wow she likes me cuz I knew I was a man so like yk what I mean. I never had any desire or thoughts to be a woman growing up. Like I’m always constantly checking “do I wanna have boobs” “do I like my penis” OH for the record I always loved my penis I remember I had a small ocd attack when I saw like sex change surgery and I imagined on myself and I started freaking out cuz i didnt want my penis to go lmao. I notice some girls here i feel like go thru the same thing i do maybe i could be wrong. Like where u keep wanting things u never wanted and its terryfing and confusing cuz it geniuely feels like u want it and makes u not like ur self

Hi I’m applying to my program and I was wondering what I should do. So my program (community college) wants a 3.0 in science with a 69 percent reading score or above they only look at the reading score. And they take heavy special consideration into people who have their AA degree (which I have) . I have a 2.75 in my science score I’m so close but my deadline is by July. Should I take the gamble and not take a class this summer to try and boost it. I personally think they won’t be that strict about it since I have my AA degree. What do you think?

So I was kicked out of the deli because I had a major health violation and they put me in front end. Now I thought I was forbidden to be in fresh departments ever since that incident but sometimes they have me going to meat or bakery to help? I’m confused because its like why do u want me there I did something really bad but I don’t know what do u guys think

Hi I’m applying to my program and I was wondering what I should do. So my program (community college) wants a 3.0 in science with a 69 percent reading score or above they only look at the reading score. And they take heavy special consideration into people who have their AA degree (which I have) . I have a 2.75 in my science score I’m so close but my deadline is by July. Should I take the gamble and not take a class this summer to try and boost it. I personally think they won’t be that strict about it since I have my AA degree. What do you think?