u/Rom_NOT_A_Bot

38M with depression and epilepsy

My meds are dopakote 500 GM and Cipralex 20 MG, class 3 obese

(50KG+) Excess weight; for financial reasons, can't afford the gym

But I have some dumbbells at home and have some basic equipment at a park nearby, but I feel so self-conscious when I try to work out; I feel like eyes are on me,

Anyone have a weight problem and have had a bed-rotting problem lately? Any advice, a peer with similar experience, even a little?

Vivaldi on both Arch and Windows, latest
8.1.4087.62 (Official Build) (64-bit) on Arch and the latest; I don't know which one Vivaldi.8.1.4087.62.x64 is on Windows, just went to the site

So I have a dual boot and another device, mainly 4 devices I am using sync with

And till yesterday it was fine; today, however, I tried adding the fourth device, a Windows device I use for some emergency. I added the key

Unable to decrypt with the given key; a message popped up in my face. I said ok, I made another key and tried, but got the same message. The key was not wrong because it is not, but it decided it cannot decrypt, so I am unable to access sync on both devices, including the main one on my Linux PC
I am fuming; I mean, what happened with Vivaldi? It was not like that

My Main OS and Vivaldi browser are :

Version: 8.1.4087.62 (Official Build) (64-bit)

Chromium Version: 150.0.7871.226

Channel: Official Build

Platform / OS: Linux - Manjaro 6.18

The other OS is Windows 10
version 8.1.4087

The key was generated an hour before being locked out and having the message "Unable to decrypt with given backup encryption key " from Both OS
PS: another key was generated using an Android 10 Tablet

Vivaldi version 8..1.4099. 70, and I used it on MY PC and got the same result.

So long story short , I am epileptic obviously .

Been on Depakine for almost 16 years now , and I gained massive weight.

My sweet tooth , appetite , and even when I start working out , my metabolism is incredibly weak , although I lost a lot of weight before 2 times.

So I have 2 questions : anyone here using Glucophage or any metformin diabetes 2 meds to control their blood glucose level ( I'm prediabetes myself) along Depakene.

2nd question: I am really fed up with depakene side effects : between hairloss, weight gain, shivering , etc.

What other meds has less effects.than valporic acid , and does anyone recommend cannabis oil and keto diet for adults.

And wish you all recovery

So long story short , I am epileptic obviously .

Been on Depakine for almost 16 years now , and I gained massive weight.

My sweet tooth , appetite , and even when I start working out , my metabolism is incredibly weak , although I lost a lot of weight before 2 times.

So I have 2 questions : anyone here using Glucophage or any metformin diabetes 2 meds to control their blood glucose level ( I'm prediabetes myself) along Depakene.

2nd question: I am really fed up with depakene side effects : between hairloss, weight gain, shivering , etc.

What other meds has less effects.than valporic acid , and does anyone recommend cannabis oil and keto diet for adults.

And wish you all recovery

so I have both as in the title , and sometimes I get these simultaneous heat attacks brain fog or heart pump and brain fog even sometimes I feel like I will blackout .

cant concentrate , and even feeling goosebumps or inner shiver sometimes.

btw Im on dopakote and I used to tonic clonic and absence but now I have mainly generalized seizures .

so I was in a huge slumber (lets call it that), was a hikikomori [NEET] for 15 years.

I have may way around the internet , and have resources I know a bit of python , perl and C , SQL and Java, but needs revision.

that being said , I needed some some spare change jobs due to currency arbitrage , but I don`t know where to start.

I made a profile on upwork but it was a circus, any pointers for a fellow adventurer just lvl1.

my goal is just odd jobs to put on my portfolio: content creation, media,graphic design I have not delved in yet .

any pointers , directions ?

and gain some beer money nothing fancy .

and thanks in advance for any advice.

Hello, my name is (Rom_Not_Bot), and I am a maladaptive daydreamer.

Everyone, Hi Rom :) Just kidding, like the support groups.

Now to the serious part: I have ADHD, in my 30s, been having MDD since 12, from what I can remember.

Having daydreams, especially because of ADHD and depression, has been a companion forever.

I had some hard experiences, so I shut down at home (just to add to the info, will not dive into it since I am not fishing for sympathy or trauma dumping, and perhaps you also have a really bad experience).

I would just put on headphones while walking and imagine every scenario there is, what if I talked to that cute person, what if I lost weight, what if I owned a business, or a famous computer scientist, or a rock star, having interviews, or imagining my favourite partner.

From my adolescent days, as I went back to my shithole country, where I was not born, I had some bullying, harassment [sexual and hazing], violence from the teachers was a regular occurrence, so MDD was my haven alongside "those videos" and metal music.

Now that I remember, I used to have literally comedic funny daydreams while sitting alone and laugh about it, and my parents were somewhat worried, I mean, I knew they were scenarios in my dream and not real, but nevertheless, they were funny

Fast forward to college, which was a little better as I went to a prestigious university where I resided, gain some more friends, went to the gym, and had a makeover; even had a crush, they still existed but a lot less.

at the final year, after I had several bad experiences and then served in the army (we have mandatory service), it came back hard, and I shut down harder.

The last decade I had some more unfortunate events*, and I am thinking of writing that in a blog, but I am procrastinating a lot, Duh (no wonder...lol). Now I read about MDD a couple of days ago, I say what the F**K! That's what I am experiencing while walking alone, trying to sleep, while trying to change my life, while trying to apply for jobs, that's the coping that protected me, but at the same time held me back from taking actions all these years.

* PS: If you are curious about the unfortunate events, TW: it has a lot of drama

(Became an activist, ended up being hunted down along my family, fled the country, applied for jobs for several years but ghosted, lost some family members and became unable to even attend their funeral, became stuck in my exiled country unable to work due to regulations, got stolen even the rest remaining of my furniture and earthly possesion and living off a monthly income from my extended family).