u/Rotowe9846

I literally just had the worse “hookup” of my life and I don’t have anyone to talk about it so I’ll do it here. It just happened right now and I’m still shaking. I was supposed to meet up with this guy and he just wanted to give head, I wanted more but I ultimately settled for that since that’s all he was willing to do. He told me he usually just wants to see the vibe before meeting again and doing more. I give him my address, he was supposed to park at the back of the house. I was ready for him so I just go outside and wait at the patio, I see him coming and I’m just stirring at his car as he’s turning. He’s at the back of my house to park, I’m waiting for him to text and he literally blocks me and drives off infront of me. I’m so shocked idk what emotion I’m feeling right now. This killed off my mood to do anything, just stuck in bed now

How I cope mentally: first of all he wasted his fuel not me(but also it was 10mins so ig he could afford that). I’m 21, I’m no Henry Cavill but I know I’m attractive and I always get compliments about my physique, I’ve had several guys I’ve blocked in this area make new profiles just to hook up with me. People always text me for more after hookups. I match with my pics and stats, they match. I've hooked up with objectively hotter guys than him, and the ones who claim they’re super picky or want hotties etc. This guy was 38, handsome, and I agreed to his terms just to get a quick release, which makes this rejection sting more. Did I look intimidating? The sun was down and I was just standing there, he clearly saw me so what made him ditch his time like that? It also makes me dread getting older. If a guy pushing 40 still acts this flaky and thoughtlessly toward someone younger, what's the dating scene like later on? I'm scared to navigate that as I age. In the heat of the moment, I wanted to knock on his car window or flip him off. He even stopped at a red light, and I considered running over to confront him. I never do petty stuff, but I actually made a fake account just to message him that I saw him, which he blocked of course. A part of me wanted to p🅾️st his face or call him a thief, but I know that's a bad overreaction, so I'm letting it go. I never wait outside, but I had nothing to do tonight and smh first time I do, this happens. This whole rant makes me sound ridiculously vain and petty, but I guess that's just this environment rubbing off on me.

I don’t even feel ugly or anything similar right now, I’m just stunned. I deleted the app and now I’m just scared ??? I heard this happened to a guy on TikTok before but he was literally laughing about it and here I am hvrt. Any advice?

I'm transparent with my pics and stats, they match. I've hooked up with objectively hotter guys than him, and the ones who claim they’re super picky or want hotties etc

(Apologies if you read this before, I just found what was the problem)

My cope 🥲: first of all he wasted his fuel not me(but also it was 10mins so ig he could afford that). I’m 21, I’m no Henry Cavill but I know I’m attractive and I always get compliments about my physique, I’ve had several guys I’ve blocked in this area make new profiles just to hook up with me. People always text me for more after hookups. My profile doesn’t lie about my stats and I look like my pics. I’ve hooked up with way hotter guys, even the dumb ones who precise they only want “good-looking” men or are “picky”. This man was 38 years old, he was good looking and I was into him but I bent my knee because I just wanted a quick nut but this is so disappointing. Did I look scary ? I mean the sun set and I was fixing him and he definitely noticed me, I’m just wondering what did I do for him to be willing to throw his time away and do that ? But also this is why I’m scared of getting old and not have a partner, because what pushes you to be pushing 40 yo and still act like this ? I’m scared to have to navigate things like that when I’m older. I was so emotionally stunned I literally wanted to go knock at his car or flip him off, he literally stopped at the red light and I was even considering running up to him and doing it, it was like a second chance to really do it. I never ever do this but I made a second profile just to let him know I saw him and that’s “super cool” which ofc he blocked. I have so much anger I wanted to like plaster his face as a thief or something but I know this would be stupid so I’m scratching that off. I never wait for people at the patio but I had nothing to do, the first time I do it this happens LMAO. This isn’t my first block either, I always just move on but this is one is awfully particular. And I guess and I am an ego maniac to add all these as a “cope”, I sound just as superficial but bear with me I’m a product of this environment.

A Hookup Damaged me

A “Hookup” damaged me