My mother in law just recently had a baby.
My mother in law just recently had a baby and I think I hate it. I have been planing all my life; with my boyfriend we planned to have a baby when we had the opportunity, but 9 months ago his mother got pregnant and I feel like this ruined everything.
She is younger than my mom (she is in her 40’s), and I understand that is an age you can still have a baby, but I feel like this situation just ruined everything I wanted. I feel like now that she has another child, when mine arrives (hopefully in 3 to 4 years at 27, my boyfriend is a year older than me) she would not care about it at all.
I always wanted to have a big happy family, hoping that my son would be loved by everyone. But now with this situation I just feel like no-one will care anymore, my son will be second place and won’t have the love of their grandparents.
I feel like I wanna die because this just hit me so hard that I went into a depressive episode that I cannot scape now.
I need some new point of view, i have tried everything and don’t know what to do.
I know this shouldn’t affect me at all, she should have not think about me when deciding to have this child, but I just feel like everything is a disaster in my head.