u/RoyalNoise8660

For a few months now I (15M) was very slowly developing an ED, and about a month ago it got bad. It's hard to explain the way I eat since I could either eat absolutely nothing one day, eat two meals or just one meal. I don't eat snacks willingly anymore because it just makes me hungrier than I usually am. I'm so tired and weak now and my stomach hurts after I eat. I've lost alot and my boyfriend and friends are worried. Although today was a good ish day (I had two meals) I know I'm getting worse. I'm only fifteen im so tired.

(Don't recommend reading while little!!)

At first when my friend (14F) figured out they were an agere through me (15M) being an agere (they figured out I was a regressor at some point) I was really happy for her and excited to have an agere sibling. But now she regresses multiple times everyday and I'm really struggling because she keeps going to me and me only for support when even while im big im not mature or independent at all. Aswell as struggling with my own set of issues, im having even more stuff weighed down on me and it's just exhausted.

I'm not mentally fit to take care of someone in such a vulnerable headspace. I've tried to explain it to her so many times, and she says she'll be less dependent but then she just does it anyway. I wish I could care for her I really do, but I can't. I don't know what to do anymore I'm at my breaking point with everything​

My best friend knows about my age regression and doesn't think it's cringe or anything and said that it was okay if I regressed around them, but I'm really scared to show my regression to them. I have regressed infront of them before but it was in school and he didn't notice. But because of my anxiety of them catching onto my regression, i've stopped going over their house for a while because of it. I really miss them and my other friend but at the same time I know I'm going to regress if I go over his house. I dont know what to do :(