(soyez cléments j'étais bourrée et faut bien rentabiliser le temps perdu ✌🏼 Ceci est un repost car étant bourrée j'avais inversé laink et terra soyez donc deux fois plus indulgents svp)
I made kind of a coming out today and at the end they just said "You're inventing yourself a problem. Just shut up and boom, problem solved."
I feel that way since 2024, maybe it's not long enough to think you are or are not something but i still feel so bad bro. I mean i m telling you that's the first time i m seriously talking abt this to someone and that's all you have to say? I knew that coming outs sometimes went badly, but being mostly surrounded by queer or ally people, I didn't think it would go badly.
Maybe i'll try to talk again to that same person later but for now i just can't, really.
(i forgot to say it but mind you this person is really dear to me, i could even say that they're the person i love the most in the whole world so It's almost a little worse in my opinion.)
EDIT: at first i shared this lil story to get things out of my chest and maybe to find some ppl in the same situation but actually i don't think it's a big deal anymore. Ppl don't get it and so what? i m over it. i hope you'll be fine, i hope things like that won't ever happend to you and if it still does don't worry you're not alone feel free to ask for advices here.
I saw many guys saying that they'd LOVE to have an obsessive gf and i understand that this idea might be interesting in first place, but i m not sure anyone is ready for it. So i m gonna give you my experience as a REALLY obsessive gf, even though my experience isn't the same as everyone else's, I want to share it with you, both to warn you and because I need to get things off my chest about my actions.
I also wanna mention that being like me doesn't mean being the perfect girlfriend, far from it.
Tw: sh/violence/sui¢ide
So me and my husband have been together for almost 3 years now, he's the best human earth has ever created, he's talented, smart, funny, resourceful, beautiful, kind, altruistic, mature, sensitive, thoughtful, perfect, and so so much more. I do everything for him, I take care of him, I cook for him, clean for him, and basically do everything he asks of me without ever complaining, or almost never. And that's the most basic thing to do in my eyes, i mean ofc he's so perfect that's the least i can do. I think of him 24/7 and i mean it, like in an hour I'll think about him at LEAST twice and that for every hour of the day, everyday since the day I fell in love with him. Unfortunately, several times during our relationship he spoke to girls for various reasons. I m sorry i'll get impolite but i hate all these bitches with all of my soul, i remember all their names, all their faces if i saw it, what he said to them and what they said to him, when, where and why, i think they deserve to d¡e honestly, It's so fucking cruel to want to ruin someone's life by taking away the center of their world like they tried to do to me. When it happened I thought about them every day; they made me feel so nauseous that I sometimes hurted myself to stop thinking about them. I wrote 269 pages about how much I hate them. Now it's fine, i m not that crazy abt them anymore lmao but i know that i shouldn't meet them in the street one day and ofc i still feel nauseous when he talks to a girl with whom I am not already familiar, and don't worry I'm not forbidding him from talking to girls; he has the right to, but he doesn't have the right to respond to their advances, and above all, THEY don't have the right to make advances toward my husband. Out of respect, I also refrain from making new friends; I have a small group of girls that he has approved of (that he finds kind, wholesome, etc.) and that's all, sometimes i talk to other people but not for more then one day maximum. I put him before everyone else; besides my immediate family and my dog, he's the only one I would be sad to see d¡e or things like that, If I had to choose between anyone and him, it would always be him. I know he doesn't think the same way and doesn't love me AS MUCH as I love him, that he's not obsessed or anything like that but that's okay as long as he love me and let me stay with him i m the happiest woman on earth ! Speaking of which, I can't stand it when he leaves me. When we argue, he ignores me to go and think things over on his own, which I think is very clever! But i don't live it really well, for exemple I harass him with hundreds of messages or even one day he left me in my room after a lil fight so i sat for ten hours straight in front of my bedroom door, wainting for him to come back. The other times I didn't move either, didn't sleep, didn't eat, or do anything except try to hurt/kill myself to punish myself for making him mad, while waiting for him to forgive me. Everytime i do something that he dislike i try to kms or to hurt myself as a punishment cause i know he wouldn't do it if i don't and that i deserve it for being a monster who makes mad the the best person ever. I hate making him sad or angry, that's the worst things I can do. I even broke my wrist once, I don't remember what I did, but I was horrible. (And sadly there is a lot of things i can't do when i feel bad or anything because even if we see each other really often we still live hours away from each other most of the time.) Ofc he feels bad for me and or doesn't understand how i can feel all of that love so deeply and sometimes i ask myself too, but he still accept me the way i am, he helps me a lot and love me anyways! Like i said i know he doesn't love me as much as i do, but that's okay that doesn't change anything he's still the best person on earth, the only human that makes me see the world with bright light and colors. I m gonna marry him, move in with him and spen the rest of my life with him i know it, we're made for each other and it's just a question of time ✌🏼
(EDIT: i was thinking abt something, i also cry most of the time i see him in pictures or irl because he's so perfect physically and idk how to say it but he's so BRIGHT he's like the whole sun so i cry of emotion cause it just feels so good to see/smell/touch him etc)
I think there might be some specific details that I forgot but anyways. Thank you for reading me and feel free to ask me any question you have in mind !