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I [19F] met my bf[18M] in school at the end of my class 12th. I have know him for 6 months , dating for almost one. He's a nice guy funny, witty and creative . I like him . We have mostly talked online and met once or twice when we were friends. One day i told him that i like him and he accepted my proposal. The thing is after that he started texting me cheesy and flirty text which i was okay with. We tried yo meet once or twice after the board but couldn't due to some issues.
The problem starts recently when i was angry at him for cancelling plan on me and he apologized for it and wanted to make things right so we met and it was normal a little weird but it was nice after the first day he said he want to kiss me next time we meet(on text after the date)
I am not comfortable with it .
Context : bluntly speaking i was kinda inappropriately touched and kissed by one of family friends when i was 4-5 . I was not r worded but it was traumatic
I spoke to some of my lovely friends and they told me to talk to him about the issue
I was over thinking a lot and decided to bring it up on our next date. Though i have no problem with kissing in general as it is a part of relationship but i don't want to get involved in any kind of se*ual activity before 25 just something i have decided for myself
On the second date before even meeting he kinda incenuated that we were gonna kiss but i didn't say much. As i person i find it very hard to open up to someone and i only told someone(my close friend as i wanted advice) about the family friend incident after my bf mentioned wanting to kiss me.
Cut to chase on the date we talk most of the time. When it was 15 min before his time to leave. We sat somewhere and he kept getting closer to me. He kept his hand on my high and i kinda told him i wanna take it slow he says he understands it . I think i kinda gave him mixed signals their cause before doing anything he asked for my permission i said sure. He held my face between his hands and kissed me at that time i felt nothing it was weird i only had thought like "does this make you happy [bf name]? " And "did you achieve your goal? " And " I am not worthy of love without any physical intimacy " And "do i have to do this everytime to get some affection from him " After that i wondered if we can go back to being friends after this . Well we kissed some more . I was so conflicted and confused on one side i wanted to kiss him but it felt weird because it is second time we met after we started dating. After kissing he let me hug him till i let go.
He was nice and tbh he knew nothing cause i didn't tell him. Though after the kiss he asked me if i wanted him to drop me home maybe he noticed i was distant but i refused.
The reason i think he want me for my body is he rushed for kiss and he also give over the top compliments . Compliments that sound like a lie and how i feel like he wants me because he just wants to be with a girl. He also wanted me to keep our relationship a secret. In the back of my insecure mind i cannot help but have thought like he'll leave when he realized that he is beyond my league or he's doing this for some bet with his friends or maybe to prove himself that how easy it is to manipulate me into loving and kissing him.
I am crashing out right now . Idk what to do and is this how a relationship is supposed to feel like. Am i in the wrong here. I am so lost
What should i do? And special mention i do have attachment issue and growing i feel like i didn't get enough love cause why the fuck do i fold at micro amount of attention form this man
I wish i had a big sister to help me navigate this situation.