u/SafeEar6537

Need somewhere to vent or I’m gonna lose it, PPA is so bad right now I thought it would die down after 6 months but everything grates on me. Partner is essentially my worst nightmare at the moment, ripped me apart for not doing enough house work and not taking care of myself or meeting his needs to his opinion of what’s necessary. Now telling me he wants me to slim down and criticising how needy the baby is and putting it down to my parenting. Sometimes I can’t tell if I’m going crazy, like I’m sure I didn’t resent him this much before but can’t tell if it’s the hormones or just him as a person. You work sure but that’s the only thing you’re willing to do atp, sat there with a mardy face on all the time and not helping then making me feel attacked and attacking me more for my reactions. ‘I’m not attracted to insecurity’ and I’m not attracted to someone who constantly makes me feel insecure do one Jesus Christ, please tell me the rage dies down because I’m at my limit

I know how this sounds so bare with me, I love my partner he’s my absolute rock but ever since we’ve had the baby I’ve started resenting him. Every time I admit I’m struggling it becomes an argument which essentially ends in me feeling worse and him being like you chose to be a mum so crack on. Since the baby’s been born he’s not been present mentally at all, constantly not helping with stuff around the house and half arsing parenting and our relationship but critiscizing whether the house is clean, the way I parent and my mental health. I know I’m suffering with PPA and PPD however I am still going and I’m doing everything I possibly can to maintain my relationship and home and baby. I feel like he doesn’t understand how hard it all is but every time we bicker it comes back to ‘I work all day’. Someone please tell me it gets better, I wanted this family so bad and I don’t want it to fall apart but sometimes it feels like I’m a single mum anyway