BFP today, battling fear and doubt.
To lean completely in or be in the cautiously optimistic lane….
Got a BFP today on a digital at 5dp5dt, was negative yesterday and it stung. I want to live in this moment and enjoy every second. I want to SCREAM IT. Buttttt my big ol brain is going down every rabbit whole wondering asking is this a chemical, what will my betas be… when/if I should test again and be obsessed with line progression.
So many thoughts. My partner is also really emotionally guarded, to protect us both. He doesn’t want me to be shattered. This baby is so wanted.
I’ve taken a lot of tests in the past couple days. I’m afraid to take more, I’m afraid to not take more. Do I obsess over line progression now or do I try to wait it out until beta? After beta do I hold my breath until ultrasound? I want to feel uninhibited joy.
Please share your thoughts, if you can relate, advice or positive outlooks.