It gets lonely
Currently in the process of diagnosing and man....I really don't like how much of life makes sense right now. It's jarring.
The worst part is, it is getting sooo lonely to have these realisations but people around you don't even understand what you're going through.
I'm glad to have supportive people around me but the support they provide doesn't land because they don't fully understand what it is like to unmask and feel like a child in an adult body, the shame that comes with it, the years lost to masking or performing a version of you to fit in, never really investing in what you liked to do, always having a wall with people and there's more. There's a lot of grief.
I think understanding lived experience is different from reading about the condition from Google. It takes some good amount of care and intention for someone to do that for you I guess.