Scored 151/240 in RAADS-R 27M should I take assessment?
I left home when I was 22 to work a tech job I was staying in PG while I was working, I was not in good terms with my family being raised by strict parents and always had problems with siblings I did abuse my new found freedom but I did enjoy it. When I turned 27 I realised how behind I was in the race despite having good package and decent savings in my bank, there's always a sense of insecurity, lack of intimacy and real connection in my life. I got drunk a lot for continuously 5 days after my birthday not in a typical party sense, mindlessly getting drunk alone by myself, I didn't invite anybody for no apparent reason I don't understand why I did it. One month ago lot of ground breaking were revealed to me it all did start with cannabis usage I smoked with some strangers (my friend's coworkers) and I became too self-aware and realised how childish I was acting before smoking, I was able to interpret what people were telling very easily (one girl was even suggesting she's open for potential relationship) I kept quite the whole time overwhelmed by all it, it made me question "If I didn't smoke I would've been speaking like an idiot". I smoked couple of times after that one time I started to talk in a childish like tone (I was in a good mood that day). It all made me question one thing only am I behaving like this all the time do I behave normal when I'm sober? well I didn't take any it seriously I thought it's the grass doing it's thing.
Past few day I found people around me were acting strange they were imitating me to a creepy extent, my family, friends and coworkers were aware of bits and pieces of information that I never shared with any of them or things I shared with one group but not with other groups, coworkers arguing among themselves for no apparent reason, my family is surprisingly chilled about my sister's divorce, I couldn't explain in details cause I myself not sure what's going on but I could conclude with one thing I was being monitored for a long time and I'm undergoing some kind of behaviour training through my friends and family.
I thought I'm going crazy I applied for sabbatical leave and came back home, I met a psychiatrist and explained him what was going on that people around me are acting weird/childish imitating me he suggested it could be cannabis induced psychosis (which is not the case for sure).
All this lead me to another possibility that I might be having some intellectual difference that nobody is telling and maybe that's why I was monitored and undergoing behaviour training in the first place so I took screening for autism it did flag I don't know what I should do next.