My partner came out as trans and idk what to do.
My partner came out trans, and I love them a lot but whenever they talk about their transition and stuff, I get sad and I feel super guilty.
We've been together for a year or so, just under and we met online playing a game we really loved. For the majority of our relationship, they had been making jokes about wanting to be a girl and having aspects of being a girl, so when they fully came out, it wasn't a surprise to me. I've always been supportive of their choices and have always told them to do what makes them happy, however, now that they've started to embrace that they want to transition, I've felt really sad about it and it makes me feel super guilty.
I'm bisexual and have dated women before so I don't really think it's the attraction. I have no idea why I feel this way. They spoke to me today about feeling super happy with our relationship and that they think we're the healthiest we've ever been, but I feel guilty about it all. I have no problem with them transitioning but I just feel so sad when they talk about it. I've always been super avoidant to change after growing up in an abusive household.
I have spoken to them about it and they said they understand, even if it did hurt them. I'm not sure if it's just a thing that I need to let settle because of my aversion to change or it's something else :/ I don't really have anyone else to speak to about this, and I feel guilty about talking about it to anyone in the first place :/
Sorry if this is just a big load of nothing, I find it hard to articulate myself and I don't want this to come off as if I don't support them, because I do, and I really want them to be happy and to be themselves and embrace it, I'm just finding it hard to find my footing and I'm really struggling with it.