Feeling really down
I am completely alone. My husband was verbally and financially abusive to me. He barely helped with day to day basic things. To top it off my mom and brother got sick 2 years ago and are now completely disabled and dependent on me. To top it off because I was so consumed with their care my best friends pretty much abandoned me because I couldn't go to brunch or their kids sports games, birthdays etc. I have 2 kids 9 and 6 who are the l8ves of my life but I've been holding everything together pretty much completely alone and with no one to talk to. I saw one of my best friends through a horrible divorce but when I reached out and shared my struggles after not talking to her for a while she completely ghosted me.
I'm just sitting here trying to get through summer with my disabled mom and brother and my 2 kids home from school. I saved up for the kidsto go to camp so I had somewhat of a break and my husband used the money for his addictions and I was unable to pay. Im overwhelmed and losing my mind. Im writing this and sobbing in the bathroom, all alone, as usual.
I feel im losing myself and the drive to to the things that used to make me happy. Im a reiki and sound healer and even that was taken from me when they decided to knock down the building I used for my practice. I just feel so lost and alone.