u/Sapphic_Venom

Any restaurant suggestions? Budget is around 1k or less since I just spent a lot on medical expenses. I always feel pressured to celebrate because of my family, so I have to at least do something today. Birthdays are just a sensitive time for me. Just a solo dining experience at a place that has a birthday promo or something. Or maybe I'll just have something delivered? No idea what though. I'll be busy working all day since I got a deadline, and I don't really have the energy to go all out.

Maybe I'll do something more exciting during the weekend if I feel better. If so, got any suggestions? I'm not into the clubbing scene because I hate noise and crowded places. I can't do café-hopping since I'm trying to lower my caffeine intake. Would love to hear some solo suggestions!

Turning 25 in a few days. I'm still in college because I'm an irregular student, so I don't really have a group I can hang out with. My original classmates from the start of COVID already graduated. I frequently see posts online of my friends from highschool already having corporate jobs and funding their own trips and expensive meals.

I still rely on my mother who's funding my schooling and such since I study outside of my hometown. I live alone. I don't really hang out with a lot of people since the few friends I made live pretty far away. The people in my classes already have their own established groups. I don't go out to party or drink since it's not really my scene. I don't mind being alone since I like the solitude, but sometimes, I do miss having a lot of company all the time like back in highschool. I used to talk to a lot of people and made so many friends, but now I barely go out except when I have classes or errands.

I don't usually like birthdays because they remind me of how much I've lost and how slow the timeline of my life has been. I know I should do something to change things, but all I can think of is doing what I can to achieve my academic goals. Seeing people my age going all out, traveling, exploring, and working makes me feel like I'm frozen in time and missing out. My parents were rarely around, so I feel lost when it comes to the technicalities of adulthood such basic financing, government documentation, business stuff, etc. I still feel like my mind is stuck in senior highschool, daydreaming about the future instead of acting in the present and doing something to make that future real.

Has anyone ever felt "lost" around this age? How did you grow out of that feeling?

So for context, I have PCOS. I was on and off different birth control pills (Micropil and Althea) whenever my period wouldn't come for 2-3 months. Last April, my period didn't arrive because of the stress, caffeine intake, all sorts of stuff I went through because of finals. But whenever I used the bidet, I would see little wisps of dried blood in the toilet.

My period arrived around May 9, and it was HEAVY. Blood clots were nonstop. At some point, there was a blood clot that was like a tablespoon and a half after I soaked through a super absorbent tampon after just an hour of having it in. I got put on Hemostan for a few days then had a transvaginal ultrasound to check my uterine lining. It turned out normal?? despite my period still being on for 10-11 days now. So my doc put me on Yasmin.

I know each case is different, and that some pills work for some people, and some don't-- but goodness, all the negative reviews have gotten me paranoid, especially the frequent mentioning of blood clots, near-death incidents, psychotic mood swings, and the warnings to outright avoid Yasmin. I'm already thinking of stopping the moment I finish my pack because I already have enough on my plate mentally and medically - and the added anxiety of getting blood clots would drive me nuts.

Can the people who use or have used Yasmin share their experiences with it?

I live in a pretty small unit and I like to keep my place clean. I religiously vaccuum and mop my floors. I always keep my drains sealed after using them. The overflow holes on my sinks are also sealed. I went on a trip for two weeks. When I came back, I found out a fuckton of german roaches invaded my place. I did the best I could. I used cockroach gels (Blattanex), baits (Baygon and HoyHoy), and sprays (Baygon) before going out. I managed to seal potential entry points with caulk and installed a door gap sealer. I scheduled the pest control service with the apartment's management. They sprayed the drains and some parts of the kitchenette.

But I still keep seeing more.

I'm considering buying diatomaceous earth and advion gel, but most of the shops I've checked on the orange app have shit or sus reviews, so I'm at a loss.

I'm gonna go insane. I can't even cook for now out of fear that one might crawl up or fall onto the kitchen counter. I've had a few randomly crawl up my bed (RIP my safe space 🥀 ), one jumpscare me while I was on the toilet (Naked and Afraid), and one stare at me from a shelf (hate at first sight).

I'm at my limit huhuhu 😭 I need help from people who know where else to check and what to do because I've done everything I can.