u/Sassiro

Bottom line of me taking sertraline is that it really works. I get more things done that leads me in what I think is the right direction for my life, people perceive me as happier, more easy going, etc.

Why I question whether the medication is good for me is I guess the bluntness, not experiencing the highs that I normally can. But I experience other highs of focus, actually wanting to do new things and doing them, not having crippling anxiety.

The questioning is probably part of my anxiety and why I experience paralysis when I'm not on medication. And the lack of super high highs is probably part of the medication working.

Since I've taken this medication before I know it doesn't necessarily decrease future anxiety while off it but I also know it helps bring me to better places where I can go off the medication and deal with life better.

I just can't shake the feeling that I should probably look for a life that works with me not taking it, which is arguably quite hard in this world tho. And I also want to live in this world that has me dealing with anxiety, and I think a calmer outsider life would bring me more depression instead of anxiety.

Maybe It's underlying issues or maybe I'm just born like this. Maybe it's physical, mental or both.

I don't know... I also believe the way I am off the medication has a lot of powerful sides to it. I'm present, compassionate, emotional and creative. Obviously it's too much if I constantly feel bad not taking medication. It's just annoying that I can't just take the medication and not think about it as much.

I guess the indecisive thoughts apply to medication as well.

Does anyone of you deal with this? How do you deal with it?

Hi. This is my first post here. I've recently gotten into jungian psychology due to a popular podcast in Sweden.

I've struggled with anxiety, depression, worry, hopelesness, you name it. The idea that I'm embodying some archetype too much really speaks to me, I'm no jung pro so correct me if I'm wrong.

It makes me feel like the things I identify with isn't really me, it's just just me being stuck in a toxic archetype, perhaps. I did relate to puer aeturnus but then again I would put myself in the group of very high functioning depression, so maybe not.

Over the years I've been off and on ssris(anti depressants), currently on, and it does help a lot but I believe that my resistance to it has to do it with a changing of identity, which is probably good but scary for the ego.

For now I feel that I can view myself more objectively and therefore deal with the scary parts of the medicine. But I'm also worried that it doesn't help me change out of the archetype I'm stuck in permanently. Maybe, even though I feel myself changing for the better on the medicine, I need to work with the underlying blockage to achieve more lasting results.

I don't think I want the medicine to stay on permanently so I'm reaching out for a deeper jungian initiation, so that I can work with my shadow and come off my medication with a better sense of wholeness. Eventually. Can any one of you suggest a next step in my journey? Or any guidance.

How do I know what I need to alter my energetic blockages?

All the best, with love,

Sassiro