As a millennial, I'm still astounded by the Disney Channel crap we'd watch as kids. How is it that we haven't had these Birdemic level crappy movies? These are simply movies that are ripe for the picking and I'm just awestruck as to why the Rifftrax crew hasn't tapped this goldmine.
I'm trying to work through some "emotions" I guess you could say after recently having a dream about an old crush from high school. She was that main crush that I think most people have during their teenage years. I can't imagine it's actual feelings as it's been 16 years since I graduated from High School and I'm married with a family. I should include that that marriage has been a rocky in the past year and a half but I guess I'm still just confused with this whole thing. I even find myself looking towards our reunion in 2030. As I usually do, I obviously went down a rabbit hole in my head about these "emotions" and find myself in a mental territory that I'm unsure how to deal with.
History of the Crush (Optional to read but good background)
The history of this crush is actually interesting just because I started to like her after having a dream about her over a the summer before my Freshman year of High School. There was nothing crazy about the dream, but just that she was my girlfriend and we just went to a movie together, so quite innocent. After that it was the classic "butterflies" when I was around her.
All throughout High School I was on the soccer team and loved it but I was really trying to maybe get her attention somehow. I wasn't a star player and played JV the majority of the time so I don't think that did much for me. Not only that, but I was about 5 and a half feet at that point.
Due to my insecurities in early High School, I never really tried to initiate much conversation with her and our friend groups really didn't cross over that often. I was very much a shy person when it came to displaying any type of feelings towards her.
In the later part of my Sophomore year of High School, I shot up to 6'2" and over the summer spent a ton of time working out, eventually leading me to make the starting lineup on our Varsity team that Fall in my Junior year. I started dating someone early that year and really liked her but we broke up as I still found that I had feelings for my High School crush.
Regardless, I gained a ton of confidence that school year and asked her to Prom. Unfortunately, she said that she was already going with someone as a friend. I began dating again that summer and although I feel like I still had feelings for her inside, it wasn't something I'd mentally pursue during my other relationship.
Conclusion of my question
So I guess my main question is do I face these feelings head on and maybe internally find out why I'm randomly feeling this way? I know that dreams can be insightful but I'm not sure what to make of this. I recently achieved some great goals in my life and find myself very happy so why are these thoughts being pushed to the forefront of my mind? Hoping someone else has learned how to deal with this before, has any insight on the dream itself, or why my mind might be thinking this is important to be thinking about. Anyways, I appreciate any advice that may come of this.
The most I ever hit was 80 and a half hours last December.