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Just saw this on insta - here is where you can grab your copy of Ghost Dance if you prefer a brick and mortar store!

2 weeks to go 🥳🥳

Just realised I’ll be in Edinburgh for this one so I don’t have to convince my partner to drive all the way up north to see them (again…😅)

Anyone else going?

Who else has preordered Ghost Dance vinyl or CD?

I’m so excited! I usually get records at gigs, but this one is special ❤️

Apologies to those who can’t get hold of it - I’ll be travelling to Tennessee in September from the UK if anyone needs help getting it (I only have so much suitcase space though…)

Anyone else loving this one? One of my favourite songs to sing along to at the moment!

I have been NC with my uBPD mum (queen/waif) for a year and a half, and it has been so freeing. I didn’t just cut her off, I slowly put boundaries up and expressed to her that things needed to change, but she still ended up having a meltdown on me and I decided that was it. She’s since continued to send me messages, and at one point travelled to the country I live in to “go to a festival” and eventually admitted to me she wanted to “fix things” and “go to that therapy appointment”. I didn’t cave and continued with NC.

My dad became brain dead a few years ago when I was still in the FOG and my mum and I were still speaking. They got divorced when I was little and didn’t speak or see each other for 10-15 years, and I know my mum made him uncomfortable. He wasn’t a great father but I know my mum had also poisoned me against him a bit as well. My mum wanted to know what was happening all the time, and kept pushing me to keep seeing him in his vegetative state after someone else pushed the doctors not to remove life support (was not in favour of this, but it was out of my hands. I knew he was gone from the scans I saw).

I got the news that my dad passed away a few days ago. Among all the emotions I was feeling, one prominent one was the dread of telling my mum. She deserves to know, and while I don’t want to talk to her, I think it would be unfair for her to find out another way (like from someone who follows me on social media).

I chose to tell her sister and ask her to relay the message for me…I’m pretty sure my mum will be really upset with me for not breaking NC and telling her, especially as I know she still cared for my dad and would want to know.

Just need some support with my decision not to break NC. I know it was the right thing for me, NC has really allowed me to live life fully and be the real me. I don’t want to go back into that box.

There’s always a small part of me telling me I should reach out and try and fix things, but I’m pretty sure that’s the part of me she conditioned to that response. Whenever I’ve considered breaking it I’ve tried to dig deeper into why I want to break NC, and it’s never about what I actually want but what I think she wants.

I hope I’m doing the right thing.

(It’s been a while since I’ve posted - if I need another haiku let me know)