I feel like an absolute fucking failure
Hello everyone, I’m a mother of 2 children. I have a 4 year old and 8 year old, both beautiful girls. I feel like I’ve been a great parent to my babies up until 6 months ago. My 8 year old had a hard time with school and we pulled her out; I also had a bunch of mental health struggles last year with bipolar, depression and anxiety, and some psychosis. I’ve always been an extremely involved mother , always “gentle parenting”.. but when we pulled my daughter out in the middle of my chaos, and then my husbands chaos (in December he was hospitalized for mental health, he’s a Disabled Veteran).. my daughter (8) just started to have an extremely hard time with listening and talking back- we even brought her to the doctor and they diagnosed her with ADHD (the psychiatrist). Since then she’s been super spicy, talking back, being rude and disrespectful, screaming at me.. we fight all the time, scream at each other. I hate it!! Seems like my husband is her preferred parent and it breaks my heart.. I also lose it with my 4 year old too.. I wish I could have more patience like I used to.. I hope I haven’t ruined their whole life.. I also have severe health anxiety, so I feel like all I’m doing is giving them trauma