u/SeaweedOne1146

When this shit started I tried this method i learnt from a psychologist on yt called ocd and anxiety , where you repeat " maybe maybe not" and "hello thought you are welcome to stay" I did this every time I got a intrusive thought and it worked I was hocd free in a week and then like an indoor I tried testing if it really went away and then it relapsed hard , it's been 2 years and 3 reddit accounts since that. I find it very hard to continue that old method and idts that it will work anymore. Please share some other therapies that help hocd patients to lose hocd. Thanks

So basically two years ago when my hocd had just started I had been to a store to buy clothes and I saw a guy , and i kept going near him and smiling (i do t remember if the smiling part was a compulsion or not coz I have smiling ticks) and I can't recall if I liked him or if it was a compulsion.

When I was ten I saw a kpop video and kept rewinding again and again coz i really like how a guy looked and when I toldy mom she hit me with the are u gay look . Was this a sign.

So this incedent was when I was 10 which was almost a decade from now. One day i was scrolling yt and saw this kpop video and kept rewinding because I liked the looks of this one guy. And told my mom and she hit me with the are u gay look. I am scared as I recall this memory

I can't tell if I like dick , while watching porn I can get off to only penetration type. I have never voluntarily watched gay porn tho. If I look at a dick i get an erection.

So i woke up at 2 am with a little pain ( a 4 on 10) in my left testicle and went to the bathroom which also hurt a bit in the same area . As I walked around the pain went away. There is no swelling asof now. I can't tell if a testicle is unusually higher than the other.