u/Secret_Psychology352

Okay so this is going to sound like a movie plot and I promise it’s real.
There’s a guy who helps run his family’s grocery shop literally ten metres from where I live. We’ve known of each other for almost four years now. Same age group, both from the same area, have seen each other constantly.
In four years we have never had a real conversation. Shop transactions only, “kitne ka hai” level stuff. That’s it.
But here’s the thing. The signs from his side have been consistent for four years. He stares (not creepily) like genuinely, customers standing in front of him and he’s staring at me walking past. He told his friends about me at some point, I could tell from their reaction when I walked by with my best friend. He was visibly jealous of my ex when I used to be with him. When I went away for nine months he literally took a U-turn the first day I was back to confirm it was me. Today he looked at me four separate times on the road and got distracted serving another customer because he thought I was talking to someone I liked. I was talking to my family friend lol.
And from my side, I have had some version of feelings for him for four years. Not constantly intense but always there underneath.
The problem is neither of us speaks. We both go completely weird and awkward in each other’s presence. I “um” my way through four words. He abandons his counter. We walk toward each other and both stare straight ahead. It’s been four years of this.
I feel like a teenager around him who can’t form words😭😭
I want something to happen but I genuinely don’t know how to make it happen when even basic proximity makes my heartbeat go to 180.
Has anyone been in a situation like this? How did you break the silence? And is it worth even trying when we’ve never properly spoken?

Okay so this is going to sound like a movie plot and I promise it’s real.
There’s a guy who helps run his family’s grocery shop literally ten metres from where I live. We’ve known of each other for almost four years now. Same age group, both from the same area, have seen each other constantly.
In four years we have never had a real conversation. Shop transactions only, “kitne ka hai” level stuff. That’s it.
But here’s the thing. The signs from his side have been consistent for four years. He stares (not creepily) like genuinely, customers standing in front of him and he’s staring at me walking past. He told his friends about me at some point, I could tell from their reaction when I walked by with my best friend. He was visibly jealous of my ex when I used to be with him. When I went away for nine months he literally took a U-turn the first day I was back to confirm it was me. Today he looked at me four separate times on the road and got distracted serving another customer because he thought I was talking to someone I liked. I was talking to my family friend lol.
And from my side, I have had some version of feelings for him for four years. Not constantly intense but always there underneath.
The problem is neither of us speaks. We both go completely weird and awkward in each other’s presence. I “um” my way through four words. He abandons his counter. We walk toward each other and both stare straight ahead. It’s been four years of this.
I feel like a teenager around him who can’t form words😭😭
I want something to happen but I genuinely don’t know how to make it happen when even basic proximity makes my heartbeat go to 180.
Has anyone been in a situation like this? How did you break the silence? And is it worth even trying when we’ve never properly spoken?

4th dropper here, couldn’t study properly due to disc herniation which made me near disabled for 9 months, I am in Kota so couldn’t even get the surgery done. I tried my best but I just couldn’t, I am not sitting for the exam, it would just cause me nerve damage, that’s it. I will get the surgery done, get enrolled in a B.Sc. course and if my body permits, I would prepare side by side for NEET, if not then that’s fine too. I am so exhausted at this point that nothing makes sense anymore.

4th dropper here, couldn’t study properly due to disc herniation which made me near disabled for 9 months, I am in Kota so couldn’t even get the surgery done. I tried my best but I just couldn’t, I am not sitting for the exam, it would just cause me nerve damage, that’s it. I will get the surgery done, get enrolled in a B.Sc. course and if my body permits, I would prepare side by side for NEET, if not then that’s fine too. I am so exhausted at this point that nothing makes sense anymore.

I am using this flair as I don’t know what else would be suitable here.

Sooo Hello guys, for those of you who don’t know what I’m talking about, here’s my last post:- https://www.reddit.com/r/TwoXIndia/s/b5dXjMNmOm

Lol it’s been 2 days since everything and omg I feel so free and so over that guy. I genuinely feel so happy right now. I realised something, I have been extremely stressed. My career is hanging by a thread, my health has been terrible for the past 9 months, I have an L5-S1 disc herniation and can’t sit or even function like a normal human being, and I need to get surgery done in a few days because conservative treatment didn’t work for me. I have no friends I can talk to, and a family that is very dysfunctional, with an abusive dad (who loves me a lot but is a terrible, terrible husband and a really controlling man). My mom is a sweetheart though and has always been there for me no matter what.

But I am basically a parentified child under a lot of stress, preparing for a competitive exam. And in between all this, I met a guy who made me feel good for a while. I genuinely realised that if my circumstances were normal right now, I would never be attracted to a person like that. And just this realisation, just sitting with it for a while, made me get over him so quickly omg😭😭

After that horrible breakup where my ex manipulated and gaslit me, I closed myself off to every connection. And then after being lonely for so long, I just latched onto one guy who made me feel something, even though I knew from the start that he was a red flag!!!

I am working on myself and I am sure I will reach a place of peace sooner than I think.

Anyways that’s it, I am so so happy 🥹🥹🥹 after a long time I feel good about something I did hehe 🥹

I am using this flair as I don’t know what else would be suitable here.

Sooo Hello guys, for those of you who don’t know what I’m talking about, here’s my last post:- https://www.reddit.com/r/MidTwentiesIndia/s/9CQA1bi5kk

Lol it’s been 2 days since everything and omg I feel so free and so over that guy. I genuinely feel so happy right now. I realised something, I have been extremely stressed. My career is hanging by a thread, my health has been terrible for the past 9 months, I have an L5-S1 disc herniation and can’t sit or even function like a normal human being, and I need to get surgery done in a few days because conservative treatment didn’t work for me. I have no friends I can talk to, and a family that is very dysfunctional, with an abusive dad (who loves me a lot but is a terrible, terrible husband and a really controlling man). My mom is a sweetheart though and has always been there for me no matter what.

But I am basically a parentified child under a lot of stress, preparing for a competitive exam. And in between all this, I met a guy who made me feel good for a while. I genuinely realised that if my circumstances were normal right now, I would never be attracted to a person like that. And just this realisation, just sitting with it for a while, made me get over him so quickly omg😭😭

After that horrible breakup where my ex manipulated and gaslit me, I closed myself off to every connection. And then after being lonely for so long, I just latched onto one guy who made me feel something, even though I knew from the start that he was a red flag!!!

I am working on myself and I am sure I will reach a place of peace sooner than I think.

Anyways that’s it, I am so so happy 🥹🥹🥹 after a long time I feel good about something I did hehe 🥹