u/SecureBus1766

I did my undergrad in Sciences Po and will do my masters here as well. I realised I would like to change to another masters - is it possible to change before the start of the year ?

I've been struggling recently with my thoughts and feelings not feeling as "urgent" anymore, as I've discussed in a few of my posts.

I'm not sure if this can help people, but I wanted to share something that my therapist told me: it's natural that your thoughts/feelings will lose some of their power after spending considerable amounts of time trying to give them meaning and understanding what they mean about you or your relationship. It is entirely possible and common for the thoughts to feel less distressing and thus sometimes more "real" over time, because we've sat with them for so long that we sometimes start perceiving them as a reality more than our own interpretation of them (often based on unrealistic expectations and harmful beliefs around love). Your brain can and will get burnt out from the intense amounts of stress that you go through, and how thoughts feel will keep changing throughout the process as you press different interpretations onto them. No matter what, they are still just that: thoughts and feelings. They are normal, and they don't necessarily have a hidden meaning you need to pick at. The way through is to accept that they are here, and they most likely will always be. It doesn't feel nice, at all, but the worrying they bring can be worked around with the right support.

This is where I'm at with understanding (r)OCD so far, I'd love to hear others' knowledge around this! I thought this could be helpful to share especially for some people I've interacted with in other posts aound this issue!

Take care everyone <3

Where should people start queueing for Conan tomorrow in the O2? Specifically for VIP?

I know what entrance VIP check-in is at, but I plan to arrive before the O2 opens so we won't be able to queue there before. If anyone has any insights that would be hugely appreciated!

I'm going to see Conan in the O2 next week (aaah!!) and this is going to be my first concert.

I have a VIP ticket and would love to get barricade, however I have no idea of the process to get that or the time I would need to show up, especially because I want to buy merch at the concert using the early access we're granted.

Does anyone have any tips, or know what the timings/logistics for queuing are ? 🙏🏻

I get annoyed at my partner all the time and really think that must mean I don't love her and I don't think is an OCD intrusive thought or feeling. But then I get annoyed at almost everyone often (like this is not out of character I think, it happened with my ex partner as well but also with my family, my friends...), so if it means I don't love my partner then I don't think I can ever love anyone properly, in the way they want to be loved. I've never read anything about this being OCD related, so I've come to the conclusion it's probably not ocd. But I'm thinking the worrying/ruminating about it might still indicate it ?

I also spend a lot of time googling, not about how i feel (at least not most of the time), but rather reading about OCD over and over to try and understand if what I have could be OCD. But i don't recognise myself as fitting the typical description (intrusive thoughts, distress-driven compulsions...) so I usually conclude it must not be that. I always keep coming back to it though, I'm starting to think I'm just trying to convince myself I have it to not have to face my issues.

Is this something that can show up as part of OCD sometimes? Does anyone relate to this ?

I've been diagnosed with OCD/rOCD after a singular assessment session with a therapist. I strongly feel I've been misdiagnosed. It's not like I'm doubting the diagnosis, rather that I know I don't have it and I've been trying to make myself feel better about the fact that I don't love my partner by relating to some rOCD components.

The "I don't love her" doesn't bring me any kind of distress, i just feel like I know it. I spend hours a day online or on Reddit, but it's only to try and find out if there's any way I could be in love with her and be feeling like this, but I feel like I just know I don't love her and I'm just trying to make myself feel better.

Reading what I wrote, I realise how it could sound like OCD but it really doesn't feel like what I see online (intrusive thoughts or feelings, distress, trying to figure out why the doubts are here while still knowing one loves their partner...). This is so horrible, like I don't love her and the relationship itself is really taking me to the trenches my mental health has dropped so badly since we started dating. But she hasn't been doing anything wrong... It's like I felt "in love" and know that it's been several months I've lost these in love feelings and I realised it wasn't actually love. I saw the therapist a few months ago when I was still having these moments of feeling in love and was feeling distressed about the cycles of loving/not loving (at least I think I was feeling distressed, the more I think about it the more I don't know if it's my memory trying to change what I remember to make me believe it was indeed OCD).

Does anyone relate to this at all? 😭