Should i do an abortion or not?
Please give me tips and let me know what you think.
Im 20 years old and did NOT planned to get pregnant. I kinda knew i was pregnant before i took the test and thought that ”okay if I am pregnant i will just get an abortion.”
But when i later looked at that stick i freaked out. Now i don’t know what to do.
I’ve always wanted to be a mom and raise my own child. I know that if I have this child it will have sooo many people around and would be so loved. Maybe I wouldn’t be able to give the child everything in this world but I know for a fact that i will be a great mom.
But here is my life situation:
I live in a small apartment (one room and kitchen) with my cat. I work in a primary school as a substitute teacher (i loveeee my job). I earn 1400$-1800$ a month depending on how much I work. My rent is about 450$ a month and i do not have any education or whatever. So as to provide for a child is going to be hard. I live in Sweden so we do have different contribution if you’re a single parent.
I haven’t told the father yet that I am pregant. We have no contact at the moment and we were kinda over before i knew. I know that he doesn’t want to have a child at all. But he is a good man so i think he would help me but I don’t know.
I am really scared that I am going to regret this for the rest of my life if i do an abortion. I am never going to know if it was a boy or a girl. I would never know what the eye color was. I really want to be a mom.
Someone said to me that if you can’t decide, think about YOU and what YOU wanna do in your life and see if that matches having a child or not. I thought about that… and what i feel like i wanna do is to have children and a man and travel the world. I could travel the world with my children.
My family would support me either way if I keep it or not.
So… I think that if i have this baby, i would never regret it. If I don’t, maybe I’ll regret it for the rest of my life I don’t know. But it’s really a bad time tho.
I just wish someone could tell me exactly what to do.