u/Separate_Elephant391

Im writing this right after i got home from work. Im sitting on a leather recliner in a silent house the only sound is the fan next to me and the TV left on from my roommate. Im an almost 20 year old man with no friends, with no relationship with my parents. My last real conversation with someone outside of work and home was almost a year ago. My life has become work, game, sleep, repeat and I dont even find gaming fun anymore. The weight of this mask I wear has become unbearable and im slowly drowning in this bitter, icey heart ive grown. Tonight was truly the first time I realized even if if were to die tonight not one person would miss me. Im a nobody loved by nobody who loves nobody. I once found the silence soothing and now its nothing but crushing. I want friends but im not into anything that people my age are into and i want a relationship but ive got nothing to offer other then my tired worn out body and my dead end job. Ive built myself my own coffin and slid the lid on myself without ever realizing it and now here I sit alone with only my own thoughts.