u/Several-Bottle2593

Just wanted to hop on here and share how much i've recently fallen in love with KiiiKiii! For context, i've been a huge New Jeans fan since their debut and am also obsessed with artists like Chuu, BIBI, Twice, Illit and H2H. I was around during KiiiKiii's pre-debut days and found their concept pretty interesting but honestly they kind of slipped off my radar after that due to exams keeping me busy. Now that I have more freetime, i've been looking for a new gg to stan and then I remembered, KiiiKiii! Ever since 404 (New Era) and their newest track Pop Off Pop Off, I am completely obsessed, I just adore the groups vibes so much! I'm pretty new and am still trying to learn all about the members, but I just wanted to spread some love. I've been looking into buying some of their albums and If anyone has some tips about the community along with any song recommendations or fun videos of them I should watch, please tell me because i'd love to check them out! (Just realised I spelt KiiiKiii wrong in the title lmao, sorry about that)

Returned to WuWa after dropping it a month after launch due to burn out (right after my poor iPad which was somehow miraculously juggling basically every Hoyoverse game at the time + Project Sekai completely gave up, totally my fault lmao). Now playing on a proper gaming PC that can run anything I desire, and I'm really enjoying the story, especially Brant. Would definitely whale for him and his weapon if he reruns, any idea when that might happen?

I’m 16 (female), and at the start of 2026 I began feeling really stressed to the point where I couldn’t go to school. There wasn’t anything obvious causing it, have a good life, supportive friends and people who like me but I still felt overwhelmed. I would have breakdowns, feel like I couldn’t go in and even started hating people (especially my friends) for no real reason, it would also be really random, like at times where theres literally nothing stressful or overwhelming at all. My insecurities about my face and my obsession with my hair made it worse  such as if my hair didn’t look right I felt like I couldn’t leave the house.

In the past, I wasn’t really bullied and I was generally friends with everyone but I did sometimes feel like there was slight mocking but it didn’t really count as bullying, more like banter. Over time, this seems to have turned into me being very self aware especially about how I look, how I act and whether people are laughing at me or something else.

My mum took me to the GP, who first thought it might be PMS but over time it seemed more like high-functioning depression with hormones making things worse during my period. I was then referred to CAMHS where I saw a child psychologist. They think it could be anxiety along with either ADHD or autism (may be high-functioning but we can’t say for certain without a proper test) which is leading to depression. I struggle with things like textures, sounds getting overwhelming or irritating when I’m stressed and becoming very fixated on certain things (like my hair), there may be other things but those are what they are focusing on. I’m on a waiting list to be properly assessed in a couple of months. I’ve also been assigned a life coach.

There’s also something else I didn’t mention to them though, I’m REALLY bad at understanding my emotions now. I can’t figure out how I feel most of the time. Things I used to enjoy like certain shows now make my head hurt but I still feel like I want to watch them. I don’t know how to compliment people properly, I’ve been told I sound sarcastic or monotone even when I’m trying to be nice. Even though I do enjoy talking to my friends,  I sometimes feel really irritated at them for talking to me and just want them to stop even though they’ve done nothing wrong and want that’s better for me. I feel like a complete asshole for this and it just makes me feel even worse, but when I’m actually with them I feel somewhat happy. Sometimes I also wonder if I have some kind of self-pity complex, where I sometimes feel like I need to die over minor things, that I’m a horrible person or feel like I’m only thinking about myself because everyone’s doing all this for me and I’m just being a complete dick about them in my head. There’s also a lot of times where I feel almost nothing at all or am just really confused about what I’m even feeling and I kind of question why I’m even here with this constant pit in my stomach and an underlying feeling that I want to cry for no reason but can’t, but I act energetic around everyone and am joking around during this. I feel just feel really awful and bad for those around/have to put up with me and I just want to be happy for them and myself.

Sorry if this was hard to understand or read (i‘m not really sure on how to describe this feeling I have), I just want to know if there’s any way to deal with this or make it better. Any advice would really help. Thank you!