u/ShapeCurious465

I want to recite kavacham twice a day - once for myself and once for someone else. Also, I want to divide the fruit of my japa and pooja in half and give it to someone else, daily.

Basically, whatever spiritual sadhana I do, I want to give half the fruit to someone else (family member) every single day.

Do I simply pray to lord Krishna that half of this is for xyz and say - Krishnarpanmastu? Would that be enough?

Thank you! :)

I want to recite kavacham twice a day - once for myself and once for someone else. Also, I want to divide the fruit of my japa and pooja in half and give it to someone else, daily.

Basically, whatever spiritual sadhana I do, I want to give half the fruit to someone else (family member) every single day.

Do I simply pray to lord Krishna that half of this is for xyz and say - Krishnarpanmastu? Would that be enough?

Thank you! :)

This is the first time I'll be buying silver. The rates have been going down for a few days. Should I wait more or go ahead with the purchase?
Thank you! :)

Yesterday, I took sankalpa to recite Narasimha Kavacham 11 times for 11 days. Today, when I sat for the pooja, I saw that I had made only 10 lines in the notebook yesterday. That means I recited only 10 times!

I'm feeling so sick with anxiety! Is there a way to fix this? If I'd take new sankalpam and start again, it would mean I have broken the previous one, which, I probably have anyway. 😞

I'm doing this for my brother. I do not want any harm to come his way. Please help me I'm so scared! I've read that there should absolutely be no mistakes in ugra devata sadhana. What should I do now? 😞

I'm overwhelmed with emotions rn so please pardon me for the blabber.

My brother (25 M) is the most important person in the world for me (31 F). We used to fight a lot when we were kids and though I was there for him whenever he needed me, I keep regretting that I wasn't understanding enough, caring enough, warm enough. I've been too harsh with him.

We were bullied a lot by our mother's family. They used to visit all the time and we were their scapegoats. He was bullied more than I was and I used to try to stand up for him as much as I could but we were so afraid of them that it just wasn't enough. Even today, the memories, the flashbacks eat me alive. I was sexually molested by my masi and her boyfriend when I was 11. They even tried to r*pe me once. The lord saved me somehow. My mother used to be a bystander. She used to let things just happen and shut me up whenever I complained. She used to just watch while naani, masi, her sons, even mami bullied us, as if we were born to suffer at their hands. My father just didn't care. Masi was a widow and had more money than our family and that's all my parents cared about.

I used to watch my brother like a hawk all the time. I used to be constantly worried about his safety. I used to drag him home whenever he went out to play. I would yell at him if he made too much noise. He was and still is my mom's favorite. So, whenever those people weren't around, mom used to bully me and pamper him. That made it difficult to express my love towards him, though I did love him and I still do.

When I was 16, I was groomed by a guy 7 years older than me into a "relationship" that lasted less than a year. He beat me up a few times because I refused to sleep with him. Then he cheated on me and dumped me. I had seen my masi being with one married man after another and I had decided I won't ever get married if this is what husbands are like. And when I decided to trust someone for once, this happened. Thus ended my search for love, validation and happiness. I never dated anyone after that though I do wish to get married. Anyway, so, my brother will be moving to a different city for PG soon and once I get married (when I find someone), we won't meet every single day like we have been all these years.

Wish I could tell him he's my baby and I love him more than anything else and I would die for him in a heartbeat but that just wouldn't change how harsh and bossy I've been with him all these years. I wish I would've been kinder and gentler. I wish I could go back and do unspeakable things to those who bullied him. He couldn't even laugh without fear in their presence. It took years and years and years for his nervous laughter to fade. He fawned and fawned and fawned, hoping those monsters would be nice to him. I curse those people with every single breath I take. I won't find peace till the fire of justice swallows them whole.

If there's just one thing I could ask to the lord, it would be his long life and happiness, even if I would have to die for that.

How do I become a better sister? How do I make him happy and his life better? Are there any remedies or anushthaans I could observe for the same? Please help me! Thank you.

His Kundali

https://preview.redd.it/lsk3puspb26h1.jpg?width=850&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=96fbb812727a328e9055d0d42397e7630a735bf5

https://preview.redd.it/ds4eaoosb26h1.jpg?width=850&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=c418b3ebfbedcc5c689f61865e0f51c5e5ef2bc4

My Kundali

https://preview.redd.it/oc0zjbovb26h1.jpg?width=850&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=a8faa131dc16753967b40e56707f92bea755f7c6

https://preview.redd.it/gui4n7nxb26h1.jpg?width=850&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=4d71d328435c8af6fdc2aeae1f52587a5e91c33b

I'm a beginner and I came across a few comments on reddit (about mending) that if a hole is to be embroidered over, it should be turned into an eyelet first, with eyelet/ whip stitch. Please pardon me if I've used wrong terms but I wonder whether that's really necessary for tiny holes?
Are there any exceptions - say, types of fabric or range of hole dia, etc.?

I want to embroider a flower/ snowflake over a hole of ~0.5" dia. Should I begin with whip stitching around? If so, should I use sewing thread or embroidery thread?
Thank you so much!

I'd prefer the measurements by weight. Also, is goda masala same as kala masala? Thank you! :)