I think Agnes has a tiger. I love seeing them with the keychains, a bit of whimsy in their dystopia
(I don’t think this is a spoiler. It was automatically labeled)
No cheating. I’d like to know. I’m not good at selfies so they might look awkward, and I don’t take many pics of myself for that reason but all the pics are from the last couple months of the age I am now.
Please note the pic with the wig and dress is from my JOB working with kids and I don’t dress like that just for fun
Also I’m holding a stuffed animal because I have autism not necessarily bc of an age thing🤷🏻♀️ that’s not to throw anyone off
I’ve been working all week (about 24 hours but it’s a lot for me). Work’s really hard for me. I’ve expressed to my bf that I’m in burn out and have been depressed because of burn out and I’m trying to recover. I partly work in education and summer’s coming so I will have more rest time, so I’m thinking today is a foreshadowing of what most of the summer can look like. I’ve been spending the day in my bedroom, and out of exhaustion I fell asleep (not sure how long but it was about an hour).
My bf tells me to wake up and no more resting and tickles me, wrestles me, gently shakes me, and tries to throw me over his shoulder. I said stop and I don’t want to be woken up, and he continues. Unfortunately I might give mixed signals because I laugh (mostly bc I feel uncomfortable) and I have a gentle demeanor that isn’t very commanding. He gave me a big hug and said he loves me so much. I think my bf feels he knows best for me sometimes. I need extra help because of my autism, and I can understand that it can’t always be easy knowing how to help, especially if you’re comparing what I need to allistics (he has adhd though btw). Like there was a time he didn’t want me to nap for more than 30 minutes because he believed the science about how naps should be under 30, and it took weeks to convince him that the study was done on allistic men and I’m an autistic woman and I wanna nap. He also can be pretty silly and likes tickling, so we have a rule in place that tickling has to be under 10 seconds which he honors. But right now I feel confused and upset.
Also I’m paying my bills and am cleaning up okay so it’s not like I need to wake up for something.
Is there any resources I can send him on autistic burn out recovery? Maybe others can work part time and be up and active on their days off (though they certainly shouldn’t HAVE to do that), and it can actually be bad for some to lay around and might make depression worse, but I’m not others. It’s okay to laze around for hours on my off day, isn’t it? Or maybe he’s right but I’m not sure. I feel pissy because I was shaken to wake up